What makes me happy

Okay! So I'm in a better mood!

I know I shouldn't say I hate being that way, because it's a part of me, but I wish I could understand it more. I guess I will in time. Or maybe I know, but I just don't quite get it.

Anyways, I have a youtube folder with all kinds of funny videos.

I really like watching videos of animals being cute, or people playing horror games and getting scared lol it's like "it's a video game, don't be scare of it." Plus I like scary movies, so it's an added plus.

Walking around trees and being able to see the earth makes me happy.

Learning something new makes me happy. Finishing a project makes me happy.

But there are things which make me nervous. Like if I finish something and someone starts to give me constant compliments about it. I start to feel uncomfortable. I'm really grateful, but the bashing of compliments really make me uncomfortable. Especially if I'm in a room full of people.

Actually I saw a video, in Japan this is common. When some Japanese people are complimented (I would say all, but I don't know if all Japanese people are this way) they will instantly downplay their ability because they don't want others in the room to feel they they are above them. And also because they are very grateful.

Hm...I don't know how to say it, but I like to be acknowledged for the work I do, but not to the point where someone else will feel inferior, where they will feel they can do what I do.

So if someone compliments me, I of course say thank you, but if they drill me I think "okkkaaayyy, enough now." hahaha

Hm....I like watching people have fun. Like little kids. Downtown they have this giant tower like structure and water pours off the two sides. A lot of kids love to play in the water. I like watching. Sometimes I want to play in it. hahaha Like really get into it.

I love having fun. I think by me saying "I can't hang out" with people who invite me to places may make it seem like I don't, but that's simply because I try to find a stable place for me to place my feet. Like now, I'm still trying to get my stuff together. I don't want to hang out with people and still live with my mom for the rest of my life hahaha

Plus I don't have a car. I hope to have one soon. I will get my drivers license before this year is over. I already promised myself this. I will not falter *___*

Also, I'm happy to be around people who can laugh! That way we don't have to be to serious. Hm...sometimes I'm a bit confused. I don't mind people speaking their minds, as long as it's not something where they try to tell me who I am. That annoys me. But if they want to say something, I don't mind. They always say "I'm sorry if I offended you." and I tell them they didn't. I find that so cute when people do that!

Hm....I like staying indoors, but I also like to get out. I like trying new things. Like new foods, new places etc. But I would have to have a purpose for going. I'll push myself out of thinking that way. I should go just because. Not everything needs a reason. ^^

Um....thinking about funny things makes me happy lol I often do this to laugh. I'd chuckle out loud sometimes lol

What makes you happy? ^^

Mon