I'm watching a tracheotomy being performed

I always get nervous watching things like this. But I want to watch it.

Actually I'm amazed by people having the knowledge of this. It' said to have been a very old procedure.

I'll share the video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SloXwGG2n-Q&feature=related

Neat huh?

But I actually do not like hospitals...well, I don't mind them. I'm not scared of them....I'm actually kind of curious about them. But I hate needles lol  So that makes me dislike hospitals.

In the past whenever I was see a hospital I would get nervous because I knew it was that time to get a shot. So soon I would get a headache lol Mainly because I had a bad experience when I was very young. I think it was the booster shot, where they give you a shot in the rump. Yeah. I remember after getting that shot I told the doctor I want more than one lollipop because it felt like they stuck me with the needle more than once. They laughed lol

I only remember that because it was traumatic for me. I was very upset lol but I remember it.

Anyways, I still like watching medical videos or videos where they show the procedure being done. I always wonder "why am I watching this??" but it's so interestingly disturbing.

Oh! And even though today I was a bit bummed about the whole school thing, I felt myself smiling earlier today when I thought about it. I feel like everything will be okay.

*sighs* Sometimes I feel like being nervous isn't worth it. In the end, if it was meant to be, it was meant to be. Being eternal beings does not stop our lives from going. If I truly believed this, I wouldn't be so worried I guess. I guess that's what having faith, true faith, is all about.

I have the hiccups too. I have no idea where they came from.  hahaha I jut realized I have them.

Mon