I haven't had any decent sleep for the past few months now!! It's driving me nuts and it's really getting to me. I feel super depressed. My sisters are being very noisy and it's 3 a.m. and I can't sleep!! My body feels completely out of whack T___T I just want some peace and quiet for a week. A WEEK!!
My focus is horrible. I feel irritated about everything. And I feel like I'm losing it. I really just want to run away because they are driving me nuts!! How can you be so inconsiderate to a person trying to sleep!!?
*sighs* It's been like this for the past few months. Even the slightest sound will wake me up. And even if I do fall asleep, when I flip over and wake up a bit I'll want to stay in bed because I would still feel so sleepy.
Yesterday, or the day before, I was woken up by my uncle having the t.v. turned up really loud and talking on his cellphone. It was about 7 a.m. I stayed up, and I didn't go to bed until 3 a.m. because I couldn't sleep.
I want to go to sleep, but they keep talking and making noises.
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Maybe if I run away to the mountains and tie myself to a tree upside down I can blend in with the possums =__=
Not just that but my mom is getting on my nerves. She would make huge messes the house and blame it on me and my sister and say we don' clean up. I honestly got tried of cleaning up after her! But I decided to clean up for my own health. But when I do, she makes more messes, and I'm just tried of it!! I think it's become second nature to her because she really doesn't know she does it.
My older sister curses way too much, despite the fact that I told her to cut it out. My mom keeps gossiping about people really loud on the phone while she walks around the house.
I don't have much of a problem with my younger sister. I'm expressed my feelings about a lot of what bothers me with her, and at least she's considerate. But right now she's not. She even came in the room while I was laying down and said "go back to sleep" but now she's out there making noises with my sisters.
If it's not one thing it's another. And the dog keep barking for who-knows-what reason. Now my sister has her t.v. turned up.
Sleeping on the roof is starting to sound better and better.
Sorry I'm complaining. I just feel completely nuts and just very annoyed because I can't sleep and I really want to. T___T I don't want to go back home to my mom, she'll just complain about either work, or how messy the house is. And I guess she feels I have to feel compelled to obey her all the time. It's gotten to the fact I feel that she doesn't think I'm a human being with emotions.
Okay I'm gonna just lie down and stare at the wall.
Mon
You know, Mon, there are sleep studies and I'm sure a city as big as yours may have several. I am concerned for your lack of sleep in your blogs. Wha they do is test your sleep patterns, among other things, and give you suggestions on changing your habits, etc. You really should look into it - most are free. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteIt's really starting to get to me. Of course I would tell myself I'm okay, my body is reacting to it. And I think that's why I may be getting irritable more often or annoyed.
DeleteThanks for your concern. Hm...but being tested. I may have to do it when I move out of my mom's house. She would be against me going and would tell me not to go.