Happy November!

I'm refreshed! I'm always excited to begin a new month. It's like a New Year to me.

Well all of last month doesn't matter anymore. I look forward to completing one of the projects I've been working on. I kind of neglected it last month. So I hope I can finish it this month. I also begin my online classes this month as well. On the 8th of this month. I thought it was the first, but it's the payment that is due today. My mom said she'll pay it, so I'm happy.

So it begins! I told myself I will push to pass my classes so I can graduate immediately. Overall I want to do my best. I told my friends I will, it's not something I should do just because of them, but I feel obligated because I said I would. But overall I do it for myself. I have to do use sheer willpower to put my mind forward to produce the work from my mind. I will focus and concentrate to my fullest. The work I produce from my animation class will be presented at some kind of film festival where students present their work *__* I will make sure mines will be outstanding! So I will do my best for this purpose. ^^

Oh! And also I've been working on my physical body as well. I feel great! But the DOING part take some time. It's all about taking that first step. After the first step it's a bit easier. I workout 3 days out of the week (sometimes 4), I do it because I would like my blue jeans to fit  better lol plus I was feeling sluggish and I thought it I should either exercise or go walking. I chose exercise, but sometimes I walk to the library.

But I feel great. Besides those things up there I don't why else I exercise hahaha My blue jeans fit fine now...I mean they were okay the first time, but my thighs....*shakes head* It was the thighs. It's always tight at the thighs, but everywhere else was okay.

Hm......I think that's  all that I've done last month. This month may be work month. Hm.....I still haven't gotten my license yet. But I will not despair. I hope I will still be able to get it before it starts to snow. Which means before the end of this month. Or I can just go to the driving place on a bike and say "okay, let's get this over with." With this kind of thing I actually have to depend on someone with a car. My mom's car isn't usable there's some issue with it, and my sister said she may take me and my younger sister. *__* I will be so happy. Then that would be one goal out of the way and I can focus on the job aspect to finally get my own car! Then save up money to pay off as much as my loan as possible while also saving for my own apartment. I've already determined that it would be okay for me to start off in an apartment. I don't need a house right off the bat. I don't need all that space.

So these are my goals. Hm....as far as my job. Well, I am going to school for animation. But I haven't thought of a place I would like to work at after I graduate. It never even crossed my mind when I decided to do animation as a major. I just thought "I want my characters to move! So I'll go for animation." hahaha It seems like a hopeless reason, but it's true. Animation is a lot of work....but even with the manga I'm working on, I'm always really happy to see the results. Sometimes my work is crappy (My drawings) because I get bored and stop putting a lot of effort into it. But some pages look fine or a panel would look very nice and I'd say "I really like it."

For example, here is the contest drawing:

http://kumikoangeloflight.deviantart.com/art/The-Color-blue-334846511

I was happy with it. When I got up towards the skirt I lost interest and it started to look kind of crappy because I slapped the green in there. hahaha

On mu assignments my teachers would write that I need concentration an focus. I won't say I CAN'T do it, but it's very difficult for me. I get antsy and it's like in my nature to move from one thing to another. I've always been this way since a child. HOP Hop HOP! Even when I speak lol but I won't say it can't be fixed.

Usually when I'm focused I'm happy. Because there would be some great work I can make. But when I sit for way to long (because I once took a drawing class that was 3 hours long and we would have to sit for about an hour drawing) I get antsy. But if I move around to get rid of some of the energy I can start working again. I guess that's called having excess energy and that's also why I work out.

For example,stippling. This creating a picture using all dots. We had to do these tiny scale images. I started off with the cat and it looks awesome. It was the one I put a lot of focus on since I had just started. Then the horse was second, and the last two just look like I didn't care hahaha stippling is a very long and tiring process. It gets boring after a while. And honestly this way I behave can also be attributed to people. >__> I know it sounds bad. But I just get bored easily. That's why I like to do things alone so I can flip flop. So I can say "well, I'm bored here! Let's move on to the next!" whereas other people might try to stop me and say "can't we stay a bit longer? I'm still having fun."

Don't get me wrong, I still talk to people I knew years ago, but after a while if they talk about the same thing again and again I feel like a fish swimming in a circle.

Well anyways, affirmations, determinations, motivation, discipline, and willpower activated!! ^__^ We have to learn to be our own trainer to push ourselves.....or rather I believe this. ^___^

Everyone have a great November! And good luck! ^^

Mon