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Have you ever had that feeling when, at the very start, you would think "I don't want to do this. I really don't want to do this"?
And then halfway through you'd probably be thinking "urgh! This is taking forever,when will it end?!"

And then towards the end you would be looking back and saying "wow....that wasn't so bad. It seemed like such a short time!"

Well, that's how I feel lol

This is my finally full week of online classes. It doesn't feel like I started in October. But it will feel strange to start going to class again because I haven't been there is a few months.

Anyways, I'm passing both of my classes with a B. My Biology grad went down because of this assignment I didn't quite understand. I was highly upset >_< because I had an A. But hey, I've never been the kind of person to be upset over the fact that my grade went from an A to a B. But I am quite determined to get both of my grades to an A.

For physics I'm at a 86.59% and for Biology I'm at a 89.44%. Which I believe I can easily get an A in Biology if I focus on it a bit more. But I started focusing on Physics because I had a C in this class and I wanted to raise it.

Anyways, I remember I did get in a dispute with my younger sister about something like this. She doesn't have a lot of confidence when it comes to passing classes.Maybe I was too hard on her. But I'm a huge believer in if someone can do something, so can I. It just means I have to practice and train at it. It's either I can or I can't. There is no in between for me.

Anyways, she dropped one of her class. Although I didn't agree with it, I didn't say anything. They told her if she drops another class she will be on probation. And that happened to me. So that's why I didn't agree with her dropping this class. I would keep telling her "you have to work hard" and she would say "I am" and I would say "then you'll have to work harder than you were" and she would say "I can't do it" and I would tell her "you can't do it with that attitude."

Mainly I was scolding her because I'm doing exactly what I'm instructing her to do. But I gave up talking to her. It's like this, if you think that way it will be that way. You will feel that way.That thought will manifest itself into your reality, into your mind. And it would seem as so.

The reason my sister feels this way is because (she explained this to me many times) she finds certain subjects very difficult. Math is definitely not her strong suit. Which is understandable. I get that. However she's gonna need to pass math to continue with her college education, it cannot be avoided. So I told her that math is simply a skill, and like any skill it needs to be learnt and repeated to understand it.

For example, I forgot how to change a whole number into a decimal lol it's elementary math. But for someone like me who hasn't taken a math class in a while, or who's only done things using letters and not numbers, it's easy to forget it.

But anyways, when I talk to people such as my family, I come off as sounding mean of harsh, and I can hear this. But deep down inside it's only the truth I see. Such as with my sister's example. I could sit with her and continue to tell her I understand. Or I could give her suggestions. In the end, she'll have to pass math, even if it's with a C.

My sister has had a difficult time passing math test. I understand this. Math is not easy for some people. Even my mom suggested she go see a tutor. But my sister has yet to even do that. The only thing I can hope for is the best. In situations like this that's all I usually do. My sister isn't me. So I can't live her life or control her. But I'm sure I look like someone who would be sitting off in the distance sighing and waiting for her to understand it! lol I would say "Finally! You got it!"

In a way I find life lessons like this. Oh! And also I had this thought recently....um......well, I forgot it. It was very interesting and I wish I would have wrote it down.

Well anyways, I've kind of found a way to remember things.Both physical things and remembering things. With physical things I found that most of the time (and I'll only speak from my experience) I would place things down without being aware of what I'm doing. I realized if I place my awareness on where I'm placing something, it's easier to find. But I'm guessing this was simple. But when in a rush, it could be something I would forget to do.

With mental things I found that I can't force myself to remember something. It's like I would have to ask the question and get out of my sight. Like what I'm seeing. Because my sight would distract me. Hm...I can only explain it as daydreaming. For the most part I've never consciously daydreamed, and it was never daydreaming, it was just me staring off and my head is completely blank...of images.

That's the kind of thing I would have to do with remembering things. Such as what I typed above, about remembering something interesting I wanted to type here. I tried doing that dozing thing but it didn't work. So I don't feel like remembering it now.

Also the bathroom smells like fresh clean laundry!! Do you know how happy I was that it smelt that way! I love that smell! I love aromatherapy. I also read that mildew could cause depression. I'm running a tiny test. The house was quite untidy, but I'm running a test. I cleaned because I wanted to test out my sister and mom's mood based on the state of the house. When the house was messy it didn't seem so friendly. So now that I've cleaned the house a little I will check to see what changes occur. I still have a bit more cleaning to do though.

Oh! I also cleaned the basement a bit too. Mainly where the cats are. They roam around more.

Hm...one thing I have notice about the cleanliness of the living room and kitchen is that when it's just been clean they'll put things back where they're suppose to be. For example, I just realized the stuff my mom bought, she placed it neatly on this little table thing.

Oh! One more thing, I watched Sherlock Holmes 2! *smiles* Ahhhh~ Robert Downey Jr.! He's sooo handsome to me!!♥

Anyways, I really like him in that movie. I like Sherlock Holmes. I never read the books, but I do like how observant he is!! *O* I was very amazed. I would like to be the way he is.

I also like Robert in the movie Iron Man :3 I watched Iron Man and Avengers because he was in it. I really like the movie Avengers. In the past I had a disliking for all things Marvel. The comics were annoying. I know it's a biased behavior lol but I didn't like them at all. Not even the movies. But I'm telling myself to give things a try and stop behaving like that!

In the end, I really like the movies. Even if I think the way I do. But it's because it's a habit. And all habits can be counter-attacked with new habits.

So my advice today would be believe in yourself. Don't let your words defeat the goal you've set in front of yourself. It may be hard, but it becomes easier. Really trust me on this! I'm not just speaking out of the side of my neck. I'm living it, and so can you~♪

Mon