4 hours of sleep, my thoughts (battle tactics)

So I only got 4 hours of sleep. I had woken up earlier, at about 1 a.m. to go to the bathroom. I had laid down at about 11:42 p.m. and woke up again at about 1 a.m. ( I didn't check the clock).

Then I went to bed at about 5 a.m. and now I'm woke again. The sound of the t.v. woke me up, them my mom told me she was getting ready to go to work. It's 9:57 a.m. This is why, when I can get sleep, I am very irritable. Because it's hard for me to stay asleep. Yeah, I get annoyed.

The reason I'm still up is because I'm thinking of military tactics. Disarming people. Pressure points etc. Things like this. About the bodies anatomy. Being observant. About how the mind works in certain situations. These kinds of things I think are important. I remember maybe 3 or 4 semesters back during a Psychology class I was chatting with two students in the back of the class. it had surprised me that there were no windows or vents and I told them that the classroom was not very safe because there's only on exit.

I told them that if a gunman were to come in, what they would do? Of course I took this situation serious. I always wonder about situations like this. Although, at the time, I felt it was unlikely, I felt it was very possible. Often I would stop and notice my surroundings.

Now I'm thinking, teaching these kinds of skills would be helpful. That way people won't feel helpless. Maybe a class about it. Drills works, because it's a procedure based on repetition. But sometimes situations arises that aren't what we planned they would be.

Although on the outside I feel like I would be a wuss, on the inside I feel like some kind of disarming military person. Of course I dislike harming people, but at the same time I know the people on Earth aren't as friendly has we would like them to be. I know first and foremost, a clear mind is needed to think clearly under stress. Adrenaline kicks in, but under certain cases, it needs to be calmed down in order to function at our best.

Also, I'm not as observant as it seems I may be. For the most part, I don't pay particular attention to everything like I feel I should, or need to. As I think these skills are very important.

Growing up without having a plan was common for me. So I feel like I'm lacking. I even remember times when I was younger, playing tag, I would go into military mode lol I would crawl as if "an enemy were approaching" and planning my next move so I won't be spotted. Ohhh yeah, the classic game of tag lol

If somehow I was in some kind of military force in a past life, I could see how it could be helpful. Especially how I have the feeling of not wanting to harm anyone. The fact that I dislike wars for the reason that I feel it is pointless killing. Maybe people who have this feeling, have it for a reason.

I often feel that our skills aren't high enough. Such as our analytical skills.

Anyways this is why I'm still up. After thinking back on that thought I had before about a gunman in our school, I realized that my thoughts are not as strange and random as I thought. So why not share them even if some people may find it strange or harsh or whatever.

They're just thoughts after all. They aren't anything but thoughts and can't hurt anyone if they don't want them to. They mean something if it touches you, and doesn't mean anything if it doesn't. As simple as that.

So now I'm gonna try to go back to sleep. Hopefully since I typed this I'll be able to go to sleep.

Mon