What I've come to understand about life

It's late, as always. After this blog I'll head to bed,but before this I want to share a few thoughts I have about life.

A few years back I went through a very VERY tough internal  battle. It was really horrible! But I look at it now as a growing experience. In a way that experienced helped me to see things differently. All of the troubles and worries that I had during that time doesn't seem to phase me as much. Yeah, I still get irritated and annoyed, but if I take a minute to sit down and see the situation, I think it through and see that there's really not fault or any blame. Now, I won't say I make excuses for others, but I do excuse them. I don't blame them. I do understand now that people are, as hard as it is to believe, responsible for what they speak, think and feel. The moment you actually grasp this concept the easier things become.

In a situation, isn't it true that we're responsible for what comes out of our mouths (the words we speak). I can understand that most people think that whatever they think they will think. Yet, meditation is a great teacher. And it teaches that you ca silence the mind with diligence, patience and time. It may be possible that some people do not want to find the time. If we really want to do something, and I mean we really want it, then we will pursue it with determination! But most people may be happy with constantly blaming and pointing fingers. Honestly, the change really does come from within.

Luckily I've had the privilege of having my eyes opened to understanding this. I met someone who I could vent to during the tough times. In a way, I guess I was trying to put the pieces together. And although I'm still not quite sure of my purpose, it doesn't make life any less enjoyable. I've found that I'm more at peace just walking around outside than I am thinking about how to fill my schedule. And, perhaps our purpose of being here is as simple as us just learning to live.

I think if our purpose was to just live and experience, most people would go nuts because it doesn't pave a clear path for them! This is t he purpose, that path or paths are craved by us, and there are multiple paths!

We may think "well, I took that path and it didn't give me good results", and that's okay, it's all about living and learning. You mess up, what do you do? Will you just sit there and let the experience consume you and take the best of you? Or will you get up and try something new?? I sometimes see people sticking with the first one.

Rather than admitting that they're really staying in the situation because they choose to, they rather blame someone else because it's easier and it makes them worry less. I mean, if you had told yourself "it's me who's choosing this" wouldn't it make sense that you'll start to wonder why? Why deal with such a problem? Why question yourself?

Well, respects to everything I just typed, everyone views life differently. Okay, before I say what I'm going to say, I'll admit that I'm still learning to be tactful. So, with that in mind, I'll say that I don't think my views are the only way of living life. That's definitely not what I'm saying at all, but I'm sure that a lot of time when I speak or type, it may come off as it seeming as if my way is the right way.No.

Now I will say that viewing things or even considering things in a way that will help you positively, could benefit you. And that's why I share what I do. So, I'm sharing advice and suggestions to give you. Think of it as someone who has experienced things and have a bit of and understanding. What I'm giving to you isn't a way of saying "You must live this way" but I'm providing insight to improving what you see.

I'm can't make you see what I see, and our life paths are likely different, but I can say that what you view in your life and how you react to those things can either benefit you and help you grow, or cause unwanted and unnecessary complications.

With that being said, I'd like to continue.

Life is only as difficult as we view it/ think it is.

Recently I've come to understand that a lot of religions pretty much help people view life in a certain way. It gives them some kind of hope/faith and it provides them with morals to live by. The fact that there are many different religions out there to suit different people, seems very similar to different fields of studies which suit different people. Yet, the only issue I have is that some of the religions try to instill fear based behaviors and cause people to...well pick at people who don't believe what they believe. In a way, I find that very contradicting. Treat the people in your religion nicely, but look down on the one's who aren't and try to convert them to your side.

That constant struggle to make other believe another is always just going to be a struggle. Why? Well, I'll give you my theory. Imagine if you have a passion for something. You really love this thing, be it art, music, whatever. Now, imagine if someone comes in and tells you that what you love is wrong WRONG WRONG. How could something I love be wrong?

Now that pushing and pulling leads people to believe that violence is the answer. That killing is okay because it's what their god would want. Honestly, this just sounds like something a human with a hateful heart would want. Humans are this way. If gods are strong, they would be able to do everything. Why work through you? Allow them to do what they do, right? A lot of those things really bother me (I'm making this personal now lol) because these are honestly things from humans.

Humans have anger and hateful thoughts. If there's a way to eliminate that which causes them those feelings, it would seem that they can just say their god wants them to eliminate it. Then it's not THEIR fault, and it's not GOD'S fault, it's the person who causes the problem's fault. You can't blame the god because this god is superior and could never do any wrong, and you can't blame the messenger because because they were doing the will of god. It's always this thing.

Anyway, this blog is suppose to be about enjoying life lol  In a way, I guess people won't be able to enjoy it very much if this is the problem, right? If there's always this pulling and pushing, how can you enjoy anything. It's like tugging on a rope all your life, constantly placing your focus on the opposing team rather than putting the rope down, looking around, and realizing that there's more to see in life than red! In my opinion, I definitely see this as being key.

A few days ago I was thinking about how, years ago when I was in middle school, I said my apologies to God when I decided I won't follow a religion. At the time, I was honestly afraid, and more and more I thought "bad things will happen!" but I was wrong. No, I think that dark void I was in those past years was because I was working through all that stuff I was told to believe. I was torn between staying the way I was and moving on to something new.

It's a tough battle! It doesn't make much sense, and sometime it may not even feel as if you're battling your beliefs, opinions, feelings, but it's honestly this. You have all the things coming at once.

I don't regret the choice I made. I feel a lot more love, I feel less stress and I feel as if there are no boundaries or limitations. That I can question just about anything. Now something I've realized is that I don't question this Creator, I question the way that people go about describing It. I don't say things like "How do I know you're real?" well that's dumb, because even if I didn't believe something was real or not, it exist for that second because I questioned it. It can cease to exist, but it exist because you had a thought about it. So in a way it still exist even if you put it out of your mind.

Once I stopped wondering what was, and what isn't, I realized that just about everything can be! And what's wrong with that? Absolutely nothing. I think when what we think is actually put into life and made physical, that's when it may become a problem.We can do so much, and yet people tend to forget that.

"Words can't hurt me!" but it seems that words are what cause people to lose their motivation, it kind or tears us down a bit at a time. But we're so strong, we believe we can do just about anything! But I do believe what we say about others can tear at their pieces.

How to enjoy life? When you become you, when you understand yourself, when you understand that no one can rip apart who you truly are at the core, and that they are experiencing their truth for their own learning experience, I definitely believe that you will be able to enjoy life. Why? Because you stop worrying about what the other person is.

What I mean is this, people are experiencing things as they need to. They are experimenting with life. I'm not saying don't help others, that's far beyond it. I'm saying that when you understand that there is you and then there is them, but you're both living separate human experiences for the same purpose, there's an understanding of a connection.

Hm...Oh! The best way I can describe it is as a family. Now, if you don't have a family and you have no idea what it's like to live in one, that's a journey that you can learn to understand. Don't think you're not worthy of being able to create a family. Family doesn't have to be related by blood. Hm....prepares I should say a close-knit relationship. Being with people who actually understand you, who at least try to get you. People with whom you can feel close with.

In life, some people's purpose in life is very different from our own. That doesn't mean they're torn apart from us. No, they are the other half to our globe. Maybe it's even split into tiny sections.

What I'm trying to say is, try viewing everyone as a relative. Some are distant cousins, some our mothers and fathers. Now, with this, I've come to realize that even my own mom is dealing with her own problems, so are my sisters, my grandma, my uncles, etc. They have their weaknesses and they have their strong points. I like to focus on the strong points. I like to focus on the parts that irk me and dig deep into why it irks me. I like to bounce off of their quirks and see what I can do to improve. I can't say "that's my brother!" to people out in the world, I do see them as different people from different places, but I don't consider them foreign or alien. I understand that they're different by how they view things because of what they've been through, and their culture. But I don't see them as not being human.

Most people can say brother or sister to relate to others, I just say human. But whatever suits you, go for it.

Well, that's all for now.

Mon