I'm happy again!

Hi!

My mom found my cellphone for me in her car. Well, I'm happy it's been found. But that's not why I'm happy. I'm happy because I am a women!

Yes, I've been just going crazy over this! I've been thinking about men and women and thinking about how lovely people are (the outer body). There's so much that goes on in the inside that keeps us alive and it all happens without us trying to consciously keep ourselves alive. By this I mean breathing, our hearts pumping etc.

Now I understand for some people it's not the case, and I feel for them, but I do believe there's still beauty in them as well. Through all the pain there is more beauty. To me, struggles equal beauty. It's like learning a new lesson. It's never easy to watch but there is always some kind of benefit. I believe the soul always benefits in some way. With each lesson brings us closer to an understanding that I can't quite explain. But I believe it's an understanding of how everything works! To me, that's amazing!

Anyways, I feel the need to share my happiness. Not as in bragging, but to give help to someone who may not be happy. My message to you  is to see the world through clear or colored layered glasses.

It's a much better experience than seeing it through glasses which needs to be clean. Whenever I feel down, I look at the world around (not the people) but nature. Okay, sometimes I look at the people, but only the happy ones lol Their happiness makes me happy. It helps me to see that at that moment I should try to deal with a situation as best as I can, or not at all! Knowing that I have those two options, I always choose the first one!

Feel that you will not let life defeat you! Think about it, when we are sad or negative aren't we only allowing a situation defeat us? That's not to say "don't feel sad" no, sadness comes. But dwelling on a sadness is not very good. It only grows stronger and it makes it seem like the situation will never go away.

I'll tell you what I do when I feel sad. Yes, when I feel sad or negative, it's realllly something out of this world! lol But if I sit outside (sometimes I won't) I would be able to find my answer (emotionally not the solution to my problem) by seeing an animal doing something that is so incredibly amazing that I would think "This creature can do that so easily. And what am I doing right now?"

Life is like work, but it's work we can enjoy.

When someone is being negative, it's very strange, but all I do is find I repeat myself. I never want a person to feel that their feelings don't mean anything. No way. They are very rewarding and they have a deep meaning. But I'd like them to understand that they are not just their emotions and that there will always be alternatives. There is always a reason.

I think knowing this has helped me tremendously! I do believe everything has a reason. For example, I've thought back on my life with my older sister, we talked about how we lived in this apartment with not much, but we were happy. I thought a lot of times "there's nothing!" but strange enough I don't really remember being saddened by this. I was more sad by the way my family behaved, if they were being mean to each other, or they didn't seem to be doing well, I felt sad by this more than not having much.

But in the end, I feel that we are close. It's strange that I often find myself saying "i don't fit in here because I think so different from them!" But beyond this I also feel closer to them. It's a very strange thing. I feel it but I wonder if they do.

But even something like this, at moments when I feel this way, it makes me feel very very happy! It's like reminiscing. Oh gawd! I"m not old enough to be thinking this way lol I  have to wait until I'm at least 80 or 90 something sitting with a cup of lemonade sitting either alone with nature or with my husband or/and children (who've I've adopted or had enough strength and courage to bear my own children lol) or a family of just all kinds of people who I've called my family (stranger or not. I'm sure it will be the latter regardless) and we'd all sit and stare out at the world. And look at each other and say "we've come so far"

At that moment I would know I could leave the earth happy! With the feeling of accomplishing what I came to accomplish.


See? This is actually why I write stories lol maybe living among people isn't this elaborate. But I certainly live this way on the inside. When I sit and look at the trees and sky, it's something so amazing! I don't have to say a world but I would think "we been together for 22 years earth!" lol like it's some kind of anniversary

Well, I have to get back to my homework.

Y'know, I also think it can be the milk and honey bath I've been taking! The aroma is very pleasant. I'm gonna take another milk and honey bath tonight! :3

Night

Mon