The plan was to stay from 8 a.m. until 4 p.m. I didn't go to bed until about 2 a.m., so I decided to take a nap while I was there.
As I was started to fall asleep I decided to kind of clear the room a bit for my sister's baby. I had asked for light to cover the room and lift it of any negativity. Then I started to fall asleep. Now as I was falling to sleep I started to get that feeling of heaviness (or that drowsy feeling where I would know I'm going to fall into sleep paralysis), and I got this heavy pressure on the top of my head. As I was sleeping I started to hear things. At first it sounded like my sister and her boyfriend were arguing. This has happened before, where I'm dreaming something that seems real (like someone comes into the room and speaks with me, but when I wake up no one is home) and it's not, it's just pieces of my dream fragmented with a dip of realness. I read somewhere that sleep paralysis is like dreaming while awake, and it's common to see pieces from your dream while sleeping with the eyes opened.
Anyways, after a while I started to hear people yelling in my head. And this has never happened before. When this happened it felt like someone was beating on my head and they were making a lot of noise. Honestly, I contributed it to people who may have passed on near this place.
I told whatever was bothering me to go away. Seriously, I wasn't phased, just highly upset and annoyed. Whatever it was was trying to scare me and it wasn't working, but they kept at it. So I asked my guide to kindly remove them from me and keep them away. And I headed back into my sleep. This last about 10 minutes, and then I was able to sleep peacefully.
Honestly, I'm happy. :) Because now I know people who deal with things like this. I have one great friend who is very knowledgeable about these kinds of things. Although I can't quite say what it was, I can say that I knew that there was something. I don't think I should pretend it was NOTHING. Because it set me up to build defenses in kind of a fear-like manner. When you can face something, knowing that it exist, you do not fear it because you accept it....I honestly don't know if that's true or makes sense lol
Anyway, I slept like a baby :P
During this experience I was fairly present, I just wanted to get some rest lol Oh! Also, I continued to imagine myself being covered in a barrier of gold/white light. This seems to help the most, but I also ask for assistance when I feel that something/someone is trying to impend any kind of negative activity near my personal space.
Hm....if I can speak as if I truly know these things, I would say that I have had encounters with children. The reason I can't speak with conviction on these things is because I can't quite separate my imagination from what truly is.
Now, the interesting thing about this is that IMAGINATION or things of symbolic matters are said to be the true language of the soul. We do not speak "ENGLISH" but people who can communicate with soul learn to decipher those meanings.Me? I'm still learning. This is why I can't say "Blah blah blah, I know for sure" lol
I don't want to make a claim that I know what a soul is communicating to me, unless I can say for sure that I understand the language. I'm still learning to decipher it.
I know we're all souls, but being human and using English, I can honestly say I'm very ignorant to how languages truly work. For example, when I try to translate something from Japanese into English, I translate it very literally. It's never this way, most people (translators) translate it based on the feeling of the message and bringing it into another language as based as possible, but not so much as to stifle what's being said....or something like this.
I say this because I translate word for word rather than the whole sentence. Which is the way it should be. When we try to analyze every little detail, we miss the bigger picture or idea. For example:
I AM SAM.
If we sit forever trying to figure out the I part, we miss the point of the message as a whole. It's not just about "I" it's about "SAM" being who they are. Do you get it?
This is how I feel when it comes to these things. I know there is something, but I can't quite decipher what it is communicating. And, because everyone communicates differently (in their own personal way), it takes time to learn.
I think I'm a feeling kind of person. But I don't quite understand "feeling" things! Which is what I'm learning. I'm learning to translate feelings into something that can be understood. I think it's a bit tricky mainly because I have to take something that isn't logical or have a statement, such as a word of a phrase, and translating that into something that can be understood.
I'll give you an example of what it's like.
First, imagine something. Now, try to bring that into physical life lol Be it trying to explain a concept to a friend or family member, this is what it's like to me. It's taking something that no one can see (or maybe even care to feel or understand) and bringing it into a state of...of well words. Because I can't quite "show" them in the sense of sight, I can bring it into life in the way of the mind through words. And even that is tricky. I deal a lot with things in the mind.
I get my own internal thoughts, such as "I want a sandwich" and making a sandwich to eat in life, but when it comes to other concepts that aren't my own, or I feel that someone is sending me a message, I'm like "what? What the heck do I do with this?" I'll be honest, I never ask for any kind of elaboration. I think I would overthink things like "am I just making this up?" lol I know I should just go with the flow though but there's that tiny bit of doubt that creeps up on me. Perhaps I don't want to allow myself to know I can communicate. There's a huge amount of responsibility that comes with it. Be it people outcasting you, or doubting you, calling you a liar or claiming that your claims come from "satan" but you know, it's nothing new for me lol I've had people call me liars and all of that even when I speak my own opinion xDD well, moving on
That is the thing that happened yesterday. I feel better but I am a bit concerned with the breakout of Ebola in West Africa. :/ Things like that always makes me sad. I know the world will continue on and I know that people will continue you, that we will continue you, but it really bugs me. I know that pan is temporary and that it will fade and we will feel no pain, but something about these kinds of things still bug me. I know that if something happens or someone passes things will continue on, but it still bugs me lol why? I have no idea lol perhaps because that connection of how they were will just become a memory. It's like watching a play and really enjoying a character, but knowing that that person will take off that costume and become themselves again lol It sounds funny, but I guess that's what it's like for me.
Anyway, I'm going to eat now.
Next time I'll talk about a new interest of mines and go over some herbs. I've been saying I'll share the remedies from my book, but different things keep coming to mind and I'll write about those instead. So, in some future blog i will lol If I remember, I'll do it tonight.
Until next time
Take care
Mon
Very interesting blog, Mon. I can see where your awareness has really helped you. Especially in not fearing but understanding more. Well done.
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