Binaual Beat mediation assignment

Before heading to bed I decided to do a short binaual beat mediation, and let me tell you lol I experienced something.

Of course I brought myself out of the experience because I started to become aware that I was falling into myself (the feeling is similar to falling to sleep but still being aware that your awake). I think the more uncomfortable for me is the feeling of losing the feeling of my body.

I really wanted to examine the feelings I get. I realize that at certain times I would feel tingling in my arms and legs (this happened in pulses). I think my right arm was the most relaxed because it became numb first. I felt a bit lighter, and I, as I said, started to feel like I was losing the sensation of my body. 

This is what I used:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tU3oAyin8W4

At the point when the frequency raised is when I started to feel that sinking feeling. Honestly what really bothers me is what I see. I get the feeling that I'm protected, but I feel like somehow things may be different with my perception. I have no idea why that bothers me, but it really does. I know it's eye-opening, and it's something I would really like to do, but I dunno, deep down it bugs me.

Well, I'll do this again! lol I'll get over this feeling. I've been saying "I'll meditate!", but I keep putting it off because of what I typed above. I think I'll do this for about 10 minutes every night before bed and record what I feel or experience :) 

Maybe I should explain why I feel I should start meditating, it's honestly a feeling. It's nothing major like "YOU NEED TO DO THIS NOW!" but a slight nudge or a thought that like "you should get to this eventually" or "don't forget about doing this." 

I always feel as if it's some kind of exercise or work when it's farther from that lol I'm always that way, whenever I think of doing anything, I think "ugh...sounds like work", but once I start it's not so bad at all lol am I seriously this way at the core? lol

So the reason I'm doing this? Well, recently my body is very tried and when I'm sleeping I just want to stay asleep even though my body is aches. Eventually I get up, but I feel my energy level takes a while to pick up when I wake up. I enjoy sleep a bit too much lol I always figure that it's from my lack of sleeping and waking at the same time. This is mainly contributed to the fact that some days I have more energy than others. Recently I find that I'm not very sleepy at all, and I'll stay awake until...well about this time. Then other days I'll go to bed at 11 p.m. or midnight, which is early for me. Because I'm on summer break I tell myself that if I feel sleepy, lie back down and don't fight it. Obviously my body wants to do this. Other times I'll just have a cup of coffee or tea. Now, the problem with coffee is the dependency and withdrawal. When it comes to dependency, it's the caffeine I'm reaching for, but I only drink a cup and it's not everyday. I usually like the taste of coffee, but when I feel that I'm having too much coffee, I'll have tea instead.

But doing all of that I think is not necessary, so I choose to just sleep. But I do find that going for a walk wakes me up! It's the air :)  

Okay okay, enough of that. Before I head off to bed I wanted to mention that I misplaced my herb book AGAIN lol yeah, AGAIN. I thought that because I was going to post this blog, I should post a bit from the book, but I can't find it again. I just thought "y'know what, put it in the back of my mind for now" lol I'll look for it later. 

I will however tell you what my recent interest is...I mentioned something like this in one of my previous blogs right? Well, I'm interested in giving messages! I find the concept of pressure points...and well the body in general, I find it very interesting! So I got a book about messages for my b-day. In the book it covers topics such as message techniques. It also have information about how to do Shiatsu messages, reflexology, and basic message techniques :) Pictures included.

My mom mentioned something interesting "Why not major in giving messages?" *___* I never considered that! Something like that would be interesting, but I'm already so far in my recent major that I definitely feel I should complete this first. I'd also like to take a few foreign language courses. And I will take some courses on giving messages! Whenever I look at a college course booklet, I get giddy! I don't like being restricted when it comes to taking classes. For example, they have classes mapped out for me, so if I want to take a ceramics class it would be pointless because it doesn't go towards my degree. It would be a waste of money and funds. So I always think that for now I should focus on my most recent major and do those other things later....or perhaps something will come up where I won't have to wait. Well, only one way to find out.

Well, that's all for now.

Night 

Mon

Oh! On another note, I forgot to mention that I had something similar to REM (rapid eye movement) while performing the binaual beat exercise. I actually want to mention that I did not follow through with the whole video. I just did as much as I felt was necessary.