Superheros always win!

Hi!

Today I don't have class and I also don't have any Chemistry work that's due (but I'll do some reading beforehand).

Anyways, I wanted to talk about something. I believe I wrote a blog about how I wanted to write stories or create art which gave people a sense of peace or happiness. I was just sitting here thinking about how it'll almost be impossible without some kind of obstacle. The feeling of struggle that character faces in one the audience would probably be able to relate to, right? The happiness usually comes after an obstacle has been overcome.

I thought that, and then started thinking about how I use to hate when the good guys would always win. When I was a kid, me and my younger sister would watch cartoons or things like the PowerRangers, and a lot of the times I would think "Oh! C'mon bad guy!" because I was annoyed at how the good guys always seemed invincible! Lol With cartoons, it was the same.

I believe there's a different way to approach this. Most of the time I don't think the good guy knows the true purpose for why the bad guy is doing what they do. This is something I feel would make the audience conflicted with who's the true good guy and who's the true bad guy. I think that everyone has a reason for why they do things. Perhaps that's why I got annoyed lol they don't understand the bad guy, and yet they can easily laugh with their friends into the sunset, leaving the bad guy all alone in a ditch somewhere.

This is kind of why I like Hayao Miyazaki movies. I never realized it while watching it, but I read that there is no true evil villain, although it would seem that way at first.

Then again, thinking this way (about handing out some kind of peace or happiness) might be a bit naive, because everyone find that different things make them happy. It's not necessarily that I think that everyone is in a bad place in life and need a happy place to go, no way. It's more like, if someone views my art, or read something I write, when they're done reading it, I'd like for them to be able to understand the serenity behind it. Kind of like "ohhh~ The colors are so warm, it makes me feel warm and cozy" or something. That doesn't mean I want to limit myself to just this! I like sad things too. Such as sad music, but I also like happy and bright things.

This is going to be completely off topic, but last night I found the cartoon Clifford the Big Red Dog on netflixs! Soooo many thoughts while watching it. I thought Clifford was way too scary because 1. he looks like a red devil dog and 2. he's gigantic! And yet, everyone accepts him lol As a kid I loved this show. I would want to cry whenever the show ended, I have no idea why lol But as a kid, I never questioned any of that. And I started to wonder if a lot of kids are that way. Just watching something without actually understanding what it is that they're watching.

There's two reactions they might have: fear or happiness! They can tell when something is scary or something makes them happy. Y'know, I miss those carefree days!♥ Not that I think they're gone or anything (I'm still the same me!) it's just we learn more about the world. We're told to be cautious. And this truly makes sense when we finally see it for ourselves.

Kids aren't dumb, but they're not going to over  think things as well. I always find it annoying to see adults talking to kids as if they don't have much sense. Hm...then again they (the children) do argue over petty things lol or this is what I remember for myself anyways. But I seriously don't want to take away that carefreeness that they have. I'd like to see older people be this way. Not afraid to play in a puddle or water. Or spinning around in circles under the sun. Why do we feel so limited as we get older? I seriously don't like that there's this "You're this age, so you behave this way" kind of thing.

For example, Mariah Carey came out with a perfume (and I believe a commercial) where she used butterflies. There were some people who felt she was too "old" for something like that. lol There was also those people who thought she should be free to use what she wants.

Seriously, looking at that kind of situation, I really start to understand more and more that some people will like something and others won't. Then it's the thought "should I appeal only to that portion that does like it?" and I believe we all know a lot of people will say "just do what you enjoy!" because it doesn't matter. However, as humans, aren't we social creatures? Is it natural to want acceptance and to be acknowledged? I wonder if people become embarrassed to admit this? Looking at things as they truly are, I seriously believe we are still children, regardless of how are bodies age. We just have societal limitations that we feel we're obliged to follow.

If we can admit honestly, even if it's to ourselves, that we need love, that we need caring, that we need to nurtured, and people listened and they understood, wouldn't it be easier to resolved what needs to be fixed? However, we may pretend that it doesn't exist (those feelings). And sometimes, we even play it strong.

Then there's the matter of, well, if we say it, what's the point because no one will care anyways. Someone will hear. We thing such a thing is weak. There's this back and forth thing between men and women where women want to be treated as equal but they want advantages in certain areas because they're women. Then men want women to stop screaming "equality" when they don't quite want equality because there's always that "but we need this...." and it doesn't make the situation equal because men don't have it.

My thing is this, women have things that men do not naturally have, and men have things that women do not naturally have. Our brains are different! But because of history, there's a bitterness. Possibly because some men and women experienced it in another lifetime, but seriously holding grudges does nothing.

I know I don't really like asking for help, because I like to try on my own (it's a challenge) and I'd feel bad asking for help. But no matter how we look at it, strong or not, there's always that part of us which appreciate that kind of help. When I was reading this psychology book, it says it's because we'll feel obliged to pay a person back.And honestly, it's not something we need to do, but still we feel we have to.

I do believe a lot can be solved with being honest with ourselves, if not anyone else. We're feeling creatures in some way or another, and when we properly feel and allow that energy to be, then we aren't blocking it anymore. People feel on a different degree, but they still feel.

Another thing that might hold us back are illogical feelings. It's frightening to have a feeling and not understand why we feel the way we do. The best thing I can advise is to come to terms with it. Feelings are not bad, they aren't the culprit. It's how we deal with the feelings with actions that's the problem.

For example, feeling angry is not a problem. But lashing out at someone with negative words, is the problem because it can lead to more of a problem then what was necessary.

I even read somewhere a while back that even positive feelings can have a negative effect. For example, being too optimistic can lead to disappointment. Because we're seeing everything so positively, it would seem nothing can go wrong and then it does.

I think thinking logically goes hand and hand with feelings. But feelings come first for some. So the balance would be to try to be a bit more reasoning before acting out. Sometimes cold hard logical doesn't always work either. I've come to find that even in the business world there's a trust in one's intuition when it comes to hiring employees or making business choices.

Some people are good at finding this balance, and others still struggle with it. Some people wonder what's the purpose of life, if this doesn't sound like a mission in itself, I don't know what does lol

I can understand a bit of the chaos of the world. A person has to deal with outer influences, and inner influences. And sometimes, they aren't even completely aware of what those inner influences are, so they try to figure it out using the outer world, and yet, are never pleased. Or some people may even work hard, have everything, and pretend to be pleased, but there's still that nagging feeling that they just can't describe. And then there's the people who'll go with just about anything they feel will make them happy, only to find it doesn't work out even when they put all their heart into it!

To me, this is life. I don't have to live as those people to understand that there seems to be something similar that they're all reaching for. I can't explain to you or tell you what it is, but I can definitely feel it.

I'll be honest, I don't like feeling. I can say with honesty that I'm a sensitive person. I cry easily and I get hurt way too easily. But one thing I know and appreciate about this is that, in the back or my mind, I'll always somehow consider the other person's feeling. As a human being I would say "it sucks! I hate it!" but it doesn't make it disappear. This is especially true for people I care about. If they say mean things I'll instantly become angry and say "forget them! I'll just move far away and they don't have to see me anymore. I'll live my happy life without them!" but soon after I'll start to think that if something were to happen to them and they needed a caregiver, could I be there to do it? I'm sure they'd appreciate it. In this world, people are in need of mercy, right?

But then, there's that said that says that people should be responsible for their own actions. That we shouldn't be held accountable for their actions! Then I'd think that as them, the people who did the actions, they may have did it thinking it were the best choice. Just as the people who believe that leaving them as they are to suffer in their own consequences, is the right thing to do.

@__@Ohhhh the endless possibilities to life. This is when I really believe that knowing one's self is important. This is when the risk of being who you truly are, comes into play. It's trusting yourself so much (more than you would anything in this world) that you believe that no matter what the consequences of your actions are, you know that you're doing things based on who you truly are. It's never backing down or questioning if you made the right choice. Because you just KNOW that everything will work out. Because you're following something that is much powerful the any situation on this earth. And that is power within itself.

Well, that's all for now.

Mon