Sleep paralysis! A possible trip

Hi everyone!!

So I wanted to actually write about a passage from an Ethics book I'm reading, but since I'm nearing my sleep time, I decided to write about my personal experience with sleep paralysis instead!

Thinking back on it, I thought a lot of my sleep paralysis were caused by the accident/incident I was in during middle school. But I do have a few vague idea of dreams that I've had as a child (actually it's more vivid because I can actually recall a few of my childhood dreams!).

In one instance I can recall I had went to my mom's room (I was about between the age 6 and possibly 8) after having a dream that our house cat had attacked me with shark like teeth beneath deep snow. The dream was a bit eerie which is why I can recall it to this day. Anyways, I went to her room to sleep in her bed, and as I started to doze off I remember constantly seeing the faces of dead Presidents. Now, this was strange because I wondered if I were asleep or awake and did this lol I believe I was asleep because my mom didn't ask me what I was doing.

Recently I haven't had many encounters with sleep paralysis. But during a very stressful time in high school (I think I can say this was due to stress) I had it constantly. So much to the point where I was afraid to sleep! It's like being awake, but still seeing dream fragments. For example, having your eyes opened, not being able to move or speak (even breathing seems difficult has it feels as if the chest if heavy **in my case**) and seeing people walking around the room.

Because it was so common for me during that time I can feel when it will happen. I'll start to feel really drowsy and want to take a nap. Often when I'm drowsy I know it will likely happen.

Hm...think of it this way, have you ever kicked a leg up in your sleep. This is what it feels like to come back! But now when it happens, I just ease myself back into my waking state and shrug it off lol

I read that this feeling is also similar to the feeling one gets for astral projecting. Personally the feeling is still very uncomfortable lol Because for me I'm still stuck in my head, but my body won't move lol During those times I'll often hear things, such as my family members talking (or I'll contribute it to them talking).

This happened maybe a few weeks ago (my earliest encounter). It was during a nap and I was feeling sleepy. I'll be honest, I often contribute this suddenly sleepy feeling to me being called on or something. It's just the feeling I get. I probably am being contacted. I never try to remember for what reason. But if I had to say my deepest feeling is of helping people. It's never huge groups, it's either a small group, or sitting with one person. I think I just talk with them. Like advice giving or something.

When I first experienced sleep paralysis I was seriously freaked! My mom told me it was the devil :/ Nice way to make me feel better lol Although, even at that time I didn't quite believe that, I was still terrified.

I've had an incident where I was fighting someone from putting my blanket and sheets over me because it was so hot. Or when I just laid in bed staring and my body feeling very heavy and I would try to call out to my siblings to wake me up! It's really frustrating lol

On one very interesting occasion I had experienced it and thought my eyes were partially opened. My younger sister walks into the room and I try to move thinking she was just a dream figure. I try to bring myself back (I often try to bring back the sensation in my fingers or move something slowly. Jerky motions do not help lol slow and steady is best) and then started to blink slowly.She ran out of my room lol I realized I wasn't dreaming hahahaha I had  my eyes wide opened. She thought something was wrong with me.

Anyways, if this feeling is seriously associated with OBE, I don't know how to completely leave my body. I've read experiences, and I think the only thing I would do is read or something anyways lol That or speak with my guides. I'd like to take a look at the record book of all life events. That would be interesting too. lol It would be like visiting an museum. Besides that I don't know what else I would do. Possibly get advice. I dunno, I guess it would depend on how I feel during the time.

They say relax into this feeling but how could someone relax into having no feeling in their body. You see, I feel very connected to oxygen lol The feeling of not breathing is a bit strange to me lol I experience that my chest if getting heavy as it, losing the sensation. I honestly like my body! Lol I like the sensations of the senses xDD They make me happy! xD I know that it's only a physical body, but goodness.

I have tried mentally preparing myself to astral project, only to find I've fallen asleep. I think the best time to try this would be when I get that feeling of being drowsy. It happens naturally. Oh! I also read that sleep paralysis can happen upon either the soul leaving/returning to the body and the brain responding before the body does.

I won't lie, it's a little foreign at first, but I think with experience it can become easier.

You see, this is why I'm often convinced I do things when I think I'm sleeping. I convince myself that I just woke up lol when in reality I'm aware something happened. I'll just have a sense of having spoken to someone.

Speaking of speaking to someone, my older sister said she had a dream where she spoke to Jesus and he spoke back but she didn't hear what he said. I told her to try to remember, but deep inside I felt that she got the message and that she just doesn't remember it. I'm sure it's there.

I never assume we don't get a message. I believe we always do, we just aren't aware of what it was. Besides, if they feel she didn't quite get it, I'm sure they'll make it more noticeable. :)

Well, that's all for now.

If someone I become aware that I've astral projected, I'll write out my accounts here :)

Mon