What if...

What if one morning we all woke up that life is simply about living it??

Wouldn't that be something? You just sit up and go "Hm. None  of whatever I was worried about yesterday, doesn't mean anything. Only today!"

I think it would be a strange thing because it may take everything we thought we were fighting for, and toss it on it's head. Most of us believe in something. In a way I think it gives us some kind of purpose, some kind of goal or direction, and that, without, it would seem as if life is way too simple.

Perhaps people love challenges. I once read somewhere that some people actually seem to enjoy pain. Not physical pain, but painful situations. Kind of like those people who constantly place themselves in situations they say they actually don't like. I've been seeing this quite a bit from people around me...mainly on fb lol or just hearing stories. The answer to dealing with the situation is so clear to us, the people on the outside looking in, but not for the person who's been trapped inside.

Today I'm feeling that way a bit. Not the conflicted part..okay a bit conflicted. I feel indifferent lol Recently I've had the time to work on projects, and I've even completed a few, but sometimes I'll just sit and do absolutely nothing but sit lol and it drives me nuts xDD According to my birth chart I become restless when it comes to routine and that I get bored easily with mundane task. My days are often the same, so perhaps I'm just like "meh", but I don't know how I'd feel with having a lot of things to do. It's a very confusing thing,

At the moment it's more of a feeling than a thought....what I typed above. This thought came based on a feeling I have. To suddenly wake up with no worries, or rather, if you have worries you realize that it's pointless to worry because all that is happening is what happened, not what can continue to be. It's ever changing. Because I believe that once we pass we go on living, and that is something that is eternal.

This just becomes more and more real to me when I think about what I learned in chemistry. Everything is made up of energy, and energy can not be destroyed, For example, if you boil water it evaporates, but it becomes a gas instead....or rather I think that's how it worked lol I don't remember.

It has been scientifically proven that we have an energy field around us, So it's only natural to conclude that we are energy and that that energy cannot be destroyed. I think it's all a matter of what happens to our consciousness. You know that thing that makes us aware of the fact that we are who we are. That I can't say. But my theory is that if when we dream and we have some kind of consciousness, then in any other state we will have some kind of consciousness, just in an altered state.

One thing I think we have to understand is that we are not just a body, but energy as well. How this energy is effected is something that is written about in metaphysics quite a bit.

Also, I think when it comes to me placing what I've read and what I believe onto this concept, it seems real simply because I say "Oh! Well that makes sense" and so it does, and it seems that it is that way. It's because I shifted my perception of a certain thing, where it took on the shape of something I came to see it as being, perhaps, not as it truly is.

So this what if statement. To wake up to just living. I say it's strange because it's almost as if walking into a museum and taking in the art with no thought about it. Just appreciating it as it IS, and nothing else. I think it's strange because I'm often placing thoughts/impressions to things without just taking it in.

Now that's not to say that using our brain is NOT useful. Quite the contrary. It's actually quite useful. I think we, as humans, are quite complex. There's some kind of system here. But I am saying we may make things out to be a lot harder than they actually need to be. THAT part of our brain, the logical one, can work in accords with our feelings of things, and vice versa. If it weren't meant to be, then some people would only have a half a brain on the right and others a half on the left. I think we take it for granted, or, we just refuse to even consider this.

What's interesting is that I think finding a balance may be quite challenging. Simply because of the way we are now. We live a certain way now, and it's considered normal. Which is why I said these things would be strange to us.

Personally, I can't say which side of my brain I use more. Actually, if I had to say I would say that I use to use the right portion of my brain much more often than I do now. But I also use my feelings quite a bit. Sometimes it seems a waste to use it, but I have it for a reason. I guess questioning it is actual waste!

If you have a skill/ability why hide it. Don't exploit it, but use it in good intent. If it's something you've worked on improving, embrace it. What I find interesting is that most people are interested in sporting it to the rest of the world. I have a tiny issue with this, but it's just my own opinion. I think it's actually kind of pointless. But it's similar to how I felt when I first started typing blogs. I would think "What's the point in sharing my thoughts?" not because I was ashamed of them, but I thought that because everyone live their own lives, what I say doesn't apply to them. So neither do my thoughts and feelings! So it's what made me think it's a waste, but not my thoughts, just the fact of sharing them and putting in time to type them.

But the thing is then I got to wondering if we learn for ourselves, or to share with the world. If it's to share with the world, than self-expression is not a crime, and should be nothing to be offended by if someone to express themselves openly. Some people say that some things are proper and others are not. But that is just an opinion based on that person's like or dislike.

For example, in art the nude figure is not seen as a crime. There are books at my library with nude figures, but it's for examining purposed. It's not taboo or sexualized. BUT, if someone were to post a picture of themselves nude and post it online, people would say it's distasteful! It's always back and forth with people.

And again, this is why I said that what if statement would be strange lol

I'll say that I wasn't expecting to type this much. I didn't expect to type any of this,but it's given me something to think about. I'm not sure where I'm going with any of the thoughts I get, or if they even mean much of anything. But I will say that someday I'll just feel completely indifferent and it's a strange and unsettling feeling to be content and worry about nothing. It's like, then what should I do now?? I guess that's why meditation drives me nuts xD

I guess I decided to dig into the concept a little. Why not give it a shot and see what results you get? Do you feel a sense of peace? Or do you feel restless like me?

I will say that I don't intend to accept my restlessness, and blame it in the future, but I'm very aware it's there. It simply takes discipline to overcome that trait :) It can be done with time. Always remember that you can always improve, and that if you made a mistake, you don't have to live in that mistake for the rest of your life. Your life is what you choose to do with it, and the moment you realize that you're responsible for the way you live it, the thoughts you decide to have (as the thoughts are what give way to what you feel), and the actions you choose, you'll start to feel that you are quite powerful. Look at the people who stopped caring what other people think and say about them! They may seem egotistical (and they may be vain lol who knows), but at least they know that they own their lives and that no one can change that for them.

MON