As vast as the universe

There's a bit of frustration that comes about in me sometimes when I'm going about my day. I've even sat down and spoke to  people who feel strongly about this topic, and they were older than me. Yet, moving past age, that's not the point. The thing I'm talking about is this whole race issue that's been the talk on most people's lips.

I'll tell you something, growing up, whenever I had an issue, I don't think I ever assumed it was because I'm black. Nope. Only once, and at the time, it wasn't me who said this, it was my mom. I was a third grade elementary student and I had a white teacher who had quite an attitude. I don't quite recall the incidents, but I remember at one point my mom said "she's a prejudiced white lady", I don't think I paid much attention to what my mom said because I had no idea what prejudice meant. So I went about my life.

Moving forward, I didn't have issues with white people, and if I did, it definitely wasn't racial. I'll put it this way, I've had just as many issues with black teachers/principals, as I did with white teacher. I've had more issues with black than I have had with whites. Does that make me racist?

I don't ever base anything on race, simply on attitude. I've had a black principal expel me once from middle school for no apparent issue. It still haunts me to this day that I got into trouble, and wasn't trusted on my word by my own mom. I've had an issue when I was in the second grade when I had a black teacher say to me "if you don't have any paper, then go tell your mom to go get you some" with an attitude rather than give me a sheet of paper.

I've had one black guy, last year, tell me that I'm a white-person-lover because I don't stick up for blacks.

I've never EVER, had a white person shame me over anything like this. Am I a white  person lover? What the heck does that really mean?? I'll make it simple, and you answer this for yourself. If one person treats you like crap, will you continue to talk to them, or find someone new to talk with?

I talk to any person who I feel is worth me talking to. I don't usually like to place worth in a sentence when it comes to who I will and will not associate with, but in this case I will. People I will give my time to are those who are respectable. When we can disagree without name calling and actually talk about it, this is worth my time. When we can sit and talk about different cultures, this is worth my time. When we can just sit and talk about our lives, and life and what we want to do in our future, this is worth my time.

This doesn't just go towards race, I feel the same for religion. I've been constantly smashed in the face with statements like "It's a shame that you don't want to go to church" or "you'll go to hell." I was seriously told that I would go to hell when I was a middle schooler.

I've taken two stands in my life. One was to release myself of the bounds of religion in search of some truth. Two, to release myself of the bound of skin color and choosing to make statements that my skin color is what holds me back.

Since I've done those two things, I've learned quite a lot. I don't need to make the same mistakes as others, because I look at them, and I say "that's something that I don't feel is me" and I work to improve myself to not be what I dislike. It's as simple as that. I look at a PERSON's attitude. This is what is important.

Some people are so closed off, and it seems that enjoy that. I have no idea why. They rather stay in their own little bubble or hate and misery, than to venture forward into the world.

There's this thing going about that black people can't make it in the world. Who says this? Who make this true? Who decides if you make it or not? What is making IT? What is this IT that you're striving for, and how do you know you haven't made it there??

There are all these ideas and I wonder if many of us even stop to question ourselves.

In the past, paths were paved for us, not to keep looking back, but for us to keep moving forward, to pave new paths for the future generation. They are the stepping stones that we place for the new generation to continue moving up. If we stop, the only place they may learn to do from us, is to go down.

The idea of skin color may very well be an illusion. I've always imagined that if we were all similar, we'd still try to find something to separate ourselves. Let's take a look at China.

In China, height is considerate an attractive trait. So there is a surgery that can be done in order to stretch out the legs. Those who are too short feel out of place. Despite the fact that they are all from the same origin, there is still that separation. People will always try to find someway to fit in.

In a way, I feel that some blacks are trying to find their place in this world. Yet, there are so many statements set by blacks from  the past, they've done some incredible things, and yet, what are you doing but talking about someone else's accomplishments? Why not start your own? Why not invent someone else? Look at Bill Gates. He worked doing what he enjoyed and made his marking in this world.

I'm not sure what some blacks are trying to prove to anyone. It seems like some want to place themselves on a pedestal, to hover over the world and scream "Look at how important we are!!" but this isn't a skin issue, it's a personal problem lol

Why do you have to feel the need to be above someone? When in reality, you are just a small piece of something bigger. In this vast universe, (and I really want you to go to google and look at a picture of the universe) is this really the only thing you can worry about. Earth, as important as it may feel, is soooo small in comparison to some of the other planets, and that planet is smaller than some other bigger planet. And guess what, our solar system is smaller than another.

We can learn something from this. An ant is small, yet it feels it's purpose in life is much bigger than we see it. Does it make it any less worthy to life? No. Honey bees are small, and yet they provide us with life as well. A simple cloud in the sky, among many, is just as important as all the rest as it provides us with shade.

You, a person among many, is just as important. Your worth, and how much you think you are worth, are only measured by your own expectations.

If you want to be a doctor, go be a doctor! It's not gonna come easily, it takes a positive attitude to persevere in the face of hardships (I know this all too well).

I'll say one thing, I think the reason why I've gotten along with white people, is because I see them as people lol I don't try to fight with them over something as small as something we can't control. I can't control my eye color, but I can wear contacts. I can't control the color of hair I was born with, but I can dye it or wear a wig. All in all, it's in my DNA regardless of what I change, but what can really make a difference is how I perceive life and the rest of the world.

If I can't tolerate being about negative people with a closed mind about such things, what makes you think that others can?

Think about that. Question yourself, and stop questioning others. Question yourself in accords with another. Ask yourself, what good does it do you. And if you feel it's something (whatever this something is) that is still worth fighting for, go for it? You may be some revolutionist.

The thing that I don't want people to do, is to waste their lives on trying to change something outside of themselves, when in reality, the true changing was to be from within.

With that being said, have a great day :)

Mon