My flaw (Impulsive me!)

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I said before that I wanted to start posting some images to go along with my blogs. Hm....I may still do that, but only on the blogs that need them. I've been also considering vlogging, but the problem with that is keeping up with them everyday. Personally, I love vloggers who vlog everyday and have specific topics they cover each week. Unfortunately I have no idea what I would talk about. So I'm sure my videos would be sparse.

Anyways, I decided to share one of my flaws. Well, I don't know if I would call it a flaw, I think flaw has a negative connotation, I'll say it's a quirk. Quirk sounds cuter and less harsh.

Well, my quirk is that I can be impulsive. Urgh, impulsive urges are the worst lol It's like temptation is always standing behind me with an offer or pushing me towards an object. Why am I talking about this? Well, yesterday there was something a fb friend of mines sent me. It's supposedly a way to make money online. Instantly I felt "Yeah I don't trust this" despite the fact that I  do use website and have earned money doing things online. HOWEVER, the difference is the amount being offered.

On this website they say a person can make about 40,000 a month. What really got me was that I would have to pay $47 dollars per month. Hm....That made me skeptical lol I know it's funny that that small amount made me skeptical. And yet despite that feeling I was seriously about to visit my paypal account to transfer money to my card lol oh boy xDD

Now, as I said I've used websites to earn money, but I don't have to spend money, and it's not like I'm earning so much in such a short amount of time. It's not like I don't think it's possible to make a lot of money in a month, but not online, that sounds like a scam.

Now, luckily I didn't have the money on my card, and in order to transfer money from my bank account to my paypal would take 3-5 days. Which I didn't do.

Instead I looked up videos and reviews on youtube, and boy did I see a lot about people talking about how it's a scam. I researched through google as well. I also thought to myself that at least with a job I'd have a better idea of whether I will be getting a check or not. I also questioned myself on whether or not I'd keep up with dealing with that website, which was an absolute no.

Recently I've been reflecting on what's important, what I should focus on, and what I need in my life to accomplish those things. And using that website was not one and going to a woman's expo was not one. These are side things I can consider, but they may likely distract me from what I need to do in order to get to where I want to be. I just hope the people I let down in the future will understand this.

Anyway, because I've been reflecting on those things, I made a promise to myself to focus, and I'm starting to feel like it really will test whether I can control my impulse to act on things I'll regret. There will be that part of me that thinks I'll really need this and that when I truly don't, and yeah I may feel a little empty because I don't need it, but it'll fade away. Besides, when I complete my goals, and the opportunity is still present, I'll ask myself if I still want that thing, but for the most part they are nonsense things.

The reason I would have chosen to join that thing is to pay off my loans, but I shouldn't even be thinking about my loans. I am planning ahead on how I'll pay them off, but I'm not so worried. I'm keeping my mind free from worrying about that and leave it to a higher power to guide me to where I have to go and, perhaps, I will happen to stumble on a job I truly love and the loan won't even feel like a burden.

Also, I've been imagining the kind of place I'd like to work. If it's in art, or whatever, all I want in a place where everyone is open and friendly, where they don't judge each other, and where they would allow you to be yourself. If that's in the place I work, I'd be happy to work on projects with them. I love stuff like that!

So I'm sure my thoughts are being monitored. I'm not asking for much, but I'd at least like that much. :)

In my birth chart it recommended that I don't stick to an indoor job, but rather to take a job where I can travel or be outdoors. I do love being indoors, but it's only when I'm at home. When I'm working on things, I can sit for only about a few hours (5 hours is the most I can sit and work on something straight through) before I want to get up and walk around outside or get some air.

Back to the point, I feel that having a quirk is a good way to challenge yourself. If you would like to stop doing such and such action, I believe it's very possible. For one, you have to place your mind in the right place. Stop telling yourself you can't and start taking small steps to get it done. If you see yourself as being something, such as being happier, being more creative, etc, don't tell yourself it's impossible because it's not. I look at it like this, you just need the resources, and if you walk into a library you will see there are countless aisles of information and books to help you improve. The same is true for life.

Improve because you want to. This is key! When you want to do it, you definitely will. :) And you definitely can!

I shared my quirk as a well to give you proof that if I can stop making impulsive decisions (and I will continue to improve this quirk) so can you~~ So let's keep doing our best because the only place you can go is forward.

Mon