Excerpt from a story

Hi!

It's getting late but I was doing some reading and it gave me an idea for a piece of a story that I've had in the back of my mind. When it comes to me creating stories, I kind of let them create themselves or sometimes I'll think "Would such an such do this?" or "How would this sound?" or I'd probably think of a mannerism, think of what their life may be like and keep it in mind.

As of now I decided to not start any new stories until after I at least complete the fourth chapter of my webcomic. Due to me focusing on school, I go on a 3 month hiatus between updates to work on school projects.

Anyway, I still keep stories I'd like to create in mind and I'd jolt down ideas or just random ideas for the characters. So I'd like to share one from a story I'd like to write someday. The time I came up with is The Dream Membrane. I have no idea what it means, and I'm not sure if I'll keep it, but the idea I have for now is about a young teenage boy who has nightmares/strange dreams after the disappearance of his younger sister a few years ago. He lives only with his mother who spends most of her time sulking around or praying for the safety of her daughter. That's all I have for now, including a few ideas.

Well, here's the excerpt.

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"With each link clicked, each website visited,

Julian's eyes grow heavier and

heavier as he began to lose the

battle between his mind, which wants

to stay awake, and his body which has

grown weary from the long day.

He continues to try to fight back the

temptation of sleep and proceeds to scrolls

through more forums, in hopes of

finding some kind of information, anything that would bring hope because the

hope he had originally felt years ago

slowly diminished, and the only thing

keeping him going now is simply his

will. Will for what exactly, is what he ponders often.

Yet the search for answer only feels

to be like pursuing the inevitable as

he passes link after link of people

posting their own experiences and

venting their own personal

frustrations. Maybe they did

experience something that he could relate to, yet with that understanding

it didn't make some of the post less weird and despite trying to rid that feeling

it still seemed quite strange.

Such as one post posted by a young male who wrote:

"I can see spirits! Sometimes I even

see myself standing beside my bed

without a mouth!"

That's the last straw...

With a draining sigh he shuts his

laptop and tilts his head back in the

chair, clasping his hands over his

face and gentle rubbing his face and temples,

wiping away the frustration of

another night wasted.

He raises his head and looks over at

the clock. It's just a little over

eleven p.m. Although the feeling of

sleep is quite strong, he's certain that even if he tried to sleep

tonight will be just like the

others and with that decides to take a trip to

the nearby convenience store instead.

After all, he could use the air."

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That's all that came to mind. This makes me think back to a website in which I was posting a story from my mind. I should find another one and do that again. Actually, now that I think back, I had two websites in which I posted my stories. One was  Tokyopop, but it changed over the years and I don't think it allows people to post their own writings. I had quite a few readers during that time.

Then I started posting on another website, but I forgot the name. I enjoy coming up with stories, but just like with drawing, I don't think I'd enjoy doing it every day. Recently I've grown a bit distant of the idea of being demanded to do work.

I understand that some people say that that is what the working world is all about, but that's just the problem. When all is about work and making money, how can you remember what freedom (true freedom) and enjoyment is??? I like to think of ants. They spend so much time working, it's become so natural to them, that if they were to be bounded, wouldn't it drive them nuts? They're not sure what to do with themselves!

Of course I could just be saying that to justify why I don't. Actually I'm very sure that's why! lol

Anyways, I've been taking it one day at a time as my time to graduate from college grows closer and closer. Deep inside I tell myself that everything will work out one way or another and I start to wonder how. I think about how my teachers tell us to sell ourselves and I think that that's just a horrible thing to tell people. In a nutshell, you're acting as something you're truly not in order to impress someone. I could be just living in a fantasy, but if I were to like someone to hire me, I would much rather be as honest with them as possible. Mainly because if I ever admit to not being able to do something, I can assure them that I can learn it. All it takes is finding the resources necessary.

Regardless, I'm not sure how I feel about working in animation. Meeting deadline after deadline. Don't get me wrong, it gives me something to work towards, but I don't know if I can do this for so many years. I dunno. I'll simply keep my options opened. I've left it in the hands of the universe and what they think will work best for me. I guess you can say I'm gonna go with the flow on this one. I do get a bit nervous but without a clear idea of exactly where I can place my talents and abilities, I decided to trust in a higher power  :) But of course I'll still do what I can while I wait.

Well, that's all for now. Feel free to leave a comment letting me know what you think about the excerpt.

Mon