Hi!
So I was just having a discussion with this guy. He's older than me by a couple of years. He said I was standing up with white people lol Okay, I'll explain it.
So I guess there is this case with someone named Ferguson (I don't know the actual story), and there is a protest in the location where I live. He called the people stupid for doing what they're doing. I explained to him that I don't know much about this case, but I don't think people are dumb for protesting. He said it was a waste of time. Now, I explain that I've had the pleasure of actually knowing someone who protested once before. When they protest they're trying to have their message heard by whomever they're protesting against.
I also explained to him that I think protesting can only do so much. I based this on the past, and even if things are fulfilled, the question is whether it will continue to stay that way. Moving on, he goes to say that there are white people there and that they are all show. He then started to shame white people and saying they aren't human. I started to get upset and a little shaken up, but I tried to keep my composure. I asked him why he felt that way. He said because they kill people.
Moving ahead a bit, I made the statement that people of what one white person did, does not make them all inhumane. He was trying to go against me, saying that white people are caveman, and they they stole a lot of things from people. He also was trying to school me on the world human. Breaking it up this way:
Hue, which means colors. Black is the true color. White isn't a color.
Seriously?! It seems he was trying to break the word up in this favor. Rather than doing that, look up the origin of the word. We then had a discussion about the origin of words. I dunno, it was kind of all over the place lol
Overall, he started passing judgement on me on the fact that I'm standing up for white people (in other words, standing up for my beliefs and not trying to separate people based on skin color), and that I don't care for black people lol honestly, how are you going to make a claim like that. He wouldn't stop talking, and I had to wait for him to finish making his claims. I told him I'd stick up for anyone despite the color of their skin.
Simply, this man who happened to be white, killed a black man and he's not going to jail for it. I understand the fury behind why people feel the way they do. My problem is this, are they looking at this situation as a man who killed another man? Or are they seeing it as a racial thing?
Killing someone is not right. I don't believe taking someone's life is right, I don't care what color skin a person has. Here's the thing, black people kill black people !WHOOOO. WHAT? You don't say!? Is this a serious crime? Yes! Do people make such a huge problem out of it as they would had it been a Latino or an Asian that killed a person of another race.
I just don't get it. Am I suppose to dislike a certain race because of what one person of that race did? Am I suppose to dislike the same thing you dislike because it'll make you feel like you can connect to me? What kind of sense does that make? It's like disliking me because I prefer to put only ketchup on my hotdog and not mustard. It's like feeling as if you can't connect to me or want to talk to me because I like wearing pink clothes? Have we really moved that far away from each other that, you're not consider one of "them", if you don't do and like and dislike what they like? Them being a group. If it means that I have to force myself to dislike something or someone to benefits you, I rather not. It wouldn't be true to me.
Anyway, make the statement "men are usually logical right?" and yet, he said he's not logical, and that he takes things he's experienced and put them together, that he uses "common sense". I told him that logic is a way of reasoning (he didn't know the meaning of the word). So it seems he makes claims, based on his own ideas of them. Which is fine. I have no problem with this. I just didn't feel it was okay for him to be putting people down and saying they aren't human, and calling them cave people. I stated what I felt needed to be stated.
Now I will admit (and I told him this as well), that he has a strong personality. He speaks his mind, but I don't think he's met anyone like me lol I take what people say and I flip it around and see if they get where they're going with their statements.
Oh, about the word thing (the word human), he told me I was getting technical. I think he thought I wasn't listening, or even cared to remember, to what he mentioned before. Before he was telling me how words originated from somewhere. That English isn't just something people from Europe made up. We both confirmed that English came from Latin roots, and possibly even some Greek (don't quote me on the Greek lol), and we agreed on this. So, when I started to look up the word, he told me it wasn't necessary. I decided to be more specific and find facts (no one likes facts, and I will admit that facts can sometimes, not be the true facts because things change). I tell him the word is of Latin root. He asked me why it's important, and I explained that if you want to get to the root of the word, find it's origin. He didn't like that.
The word Human is a Latin word. The original word was not human, but Homo, then to Humanus. Homo means "men, human being", think of the word Homosapien.
He wasn't satisfied. After a while I just started ignoring him lol I was getting to shaken up over nothing. I came to the conclusion that this man obviously wanted to continue to believe this. So I just told myself that it's okay, and to let him just vent and leave. Which is what he did lol If a person wants to feel or think a certain way, go ahead. Just don't try to pull me down to your level. Don't talk about people around me, and don't try to make me negative.
He classified me as an optimistic. I'll admit, that I am, but I also think....hm...I'm not sure if it's realistic, but I think like this, I see a problem, I begin to think of ways to resolve that problem. Sometimes the best ways to solve a problem is not always easy, and can even be a way that we don't necessarily want to do, or think will solve the problem. But until we do that, I truly believe we'll continue to see this lesson appear over and over again in our media.We'll keep creating situations that fuel what we believe and think. This is a collective consciousnesses thing.
Hm....I'll say this, for those who say "I bet (something negative) will happen)" and they keep saying that over and over again in their heads, and then it happens, well, this happens because you are intending for it to happen. Now, imagine this on a grander scale. If people are all constantly sending out that thought that such and such will happen, it will be. People will find this hard to believe, but let's not state this as some religious thing. Let's take this from things normal people may experience in life.
If you keep thinking you won't pass a test and you spend all of your time worrying that you won't pass it, how can you ever focus enough to study well enough to get a good grade? Then you fail the test, and feel defeated and you "knew that it would happen". Well of course you did, you created it for yourself.
Think of it like this, when you place your attention on something, you put your attention on it. It is not in your field of vision and it's something you see. This is how consciously thinking something over and over again can come into your field of vision.
That doesn't mean that if you think positively for a day everything will change overnight. No. But it is the beginning. It's something that has to be constant. Everyday, starting with you, start the intent that you will be loving, that you will show compassion, that you will not judge. The people you affect will began to mirror this!
I'm not making this up. I can tell you that the person who sabotages me the most is myself. I never sabotage others, and I realize that I actually have met a lot of nice people, and I've also realize that if I did pass judgement in the past, and I made the mistake of saying some inappropriate things to someone else, the people I knew were a reflection of this. After I stopped, those people suddenly fell from my life (no joke, I lost the cellphone with all those people's contact numbers in them), so yes, I'm a believer in this.
So, even after reading all of this, if you choose to continue to stay where you are, and you're happy. Go ahead. As long as your happy. The thing is, is that I'm not speaking of religions, I'm only speaking of togetherness. We'd work a lot better if we learned to work together. Yeah, we're individuals, but we're individuals sharing one planet. You know, I can see how things can become hectic lol Think of us as living in one house lol we're gonna have arguments, some of us will be inconsiderate of others, and some of us will not clean up our mess. But it's until we learn to cooperate with one another that we will, little by little, be able to stand each other lol
On that note, I'm off!
Mon
Tuesday, November 25, 2014
Fear of scrutiny
Hi!
So recently I haven't been in the mood to type....wait, I'll rephrase that, I have been wanting to type, but I haven't been in the mood to actually do the typing. It's been this way for about a year now....but it's become more intense these past few months.
I think it's seriously boiled down to my fear of messing up. I have a pretty idea of why this has surfaced and is a problem now. Throughout my life I've taken suggestions or words that others have said very personally. Yet, I understand now that doing this is kind of pointless. Why? It's simply because those people aren't living your life. If you're happy living a certain way and it's not harming anyone, than what they say really shouldn't matter.
Yet, we live in a culture where fitting in seems to be essential. No one wants to be a true outcast, as much as they would want to be an individual. This is the obstacle I'm faced with. Here's the thing, and I'll explain why I find this situation so perplexing to me. I'm aware of the issues, I know what I have to do, I'm just having a tough time doing it.
In the past (growing up), when I would draw a picture I never colored my human characters with dark skin. My sister and mom would always question why I didn't color my characters with darker skin. Of course I didn't feel compelled to. It had nothing to do with anything. I just thought "this color would look best for what I'm going for." So if I was to draw a character that is suppose to be of some humid and summer-like climate, I would probably color them with darker skin. Them constantly making that statement made me wonder if I was being biased with my drawings. I started to feel compelled to draw and color the way that would satisfy them.Then came my classes where I would do things the way I wanted to, only to have my teachers make comments that a different way is better. I would follow by this even though I didn't want to.
Suddenly, I soon began to realize that I just can't produce work without effort like I use to. During my middle school and early high school years I felt my work was effortless. I wasn't trying to please anyone. I was just drawing and I enjoyed doing it when I was bored in class. Yet, I started to realize that something was wrong. Things were flowing, but I was stifled. I had ideas, I would write them, only to find that I'm too tired to write. I had things coming, but I just don't feel like doing anything. Am I becoming lazy? Have I lost my "thing"?
I've come to this conclusion. Actually, it's been this way for a few days now that I've shut myself off. I'm being lazy from wanting to write (which is causing me to fall behind in my capstone class because I don't feel like writing and I have a 15 page paper that's due...I'll get to this later), drawing or creating anything in general. I'm just SO tired. The conclusion is that I've done this to myself. It's kind of like, if I can't be who I am, then why should I create anything? My soul has responded in this way.
I've been sleepy and all I want to do is sleep. Most days I'm just sitting and thinking absolutely nothing. I would feel so miserable! While everyone else is in my household having fun, I'm slump in my room trying to figure out what's wrong with me. I accounted this to me becoming very restless to the point of it being unbearable, and it truly has been. I pitch these ideas to people and they enjoy them, yet, I just can't seem to produce anything.
So what's the point in typing this? Well, I figured that if I write what I'm thinking and feeling, I will find some kind of release. I know that the most obvious thing to do is to just DO. Seriously, before I wrote this, I walked through this door and there were all these papers posted on the wall and all kinds of quotes from people who are story-writers. They all said similar things "just do it without restricting yourself" is the message I got. My teachers have been saying it. They say "you over think!" and I didn't think I did. I thought I was just trying to understand. I still think I do try to understand, but I try to understand things so well and so much, that I miss the true purpose, and that's just the experience of it.
I've lost light of my true enjoyment, and that's learning without trying to learn. It's understanding through experience, not trying to understand the experience. In the past, I would take what I get, feel something about it, dislike it or not, and move on. It was that simple. Now, I think think and think.
Art is not about thinking. It's simply about doing. It's not about understanding what's being done, it's about just feeling it and going along with it. These words that I'm typing now are flowing freely.
Even with blogging, I've been boggled down with wondering what I should and shouldn't type. The purpose, that I've come to understand, is that I should type what's on my mind or my heart. It means something to me, and it may or may not mean anything to me.
You see, when I type stories, I started to consider the people who will be viewing it, rather than what the characters would and wouldn't do, regardless of how silly or sad it becomes. I began to wonder what the viewers would like. This isn't a bad thing, but I've become so focused on this that I limit myself to my free flowing ideas.
From few experiences I've had where people questioned my work, I thought "I'd like to make them enjoy my work" when in reality, I can't make anyone like anything. They'll like or dislike what they want and the same holds true for me.
So to my capstone class. We have this paper that we have to write. Out of the whole 7 weeks, I've only gotten 4 pages done. As I said, I limited myself. So I would write what I can and feel miserable that I just don't get it. So my teacher ended up scolding me yesterday lol she told me I was complaining. I didn't want to believe I was complaining. She said that I should just write and that she's given me all the advice that she can, but I may not be getting it.
I'll say this, I was complaining, but not at her, at myself. It was frustrating that, although she gave me all this advice, I couldn't bring myself to just write. I know I can write because I blog so much lol
So, I won't just type this without a resolution. Here is my solution. I take what I learned about writing, consider the things I've been thought, but create the way I want. For example, in my 3D modeling class, my teacher was suggesting that I model to scale. Well, I like math, but I'm not good with measurements, or even simple math (don't judge me lol) So I instantly retorted "what if it's suppose to be this way?" he told me not to get sassy with him lol I won't lie, I do this when I'm trying to make a point lol What's funny is that it works?
Anyway, after researching why I should learn to build to scale, it was simply because it lights more realistically. WOOOO HOOOO! Why didn't he just say that? lol My question is, what if I didn't want realistic lighting? Anyway, I was being difficult. I ended up following his suggestion. In the end, I didn't have to. I never have to take anyone's advice but here's the thing: I did. And I've learned new things that I can use, but I that I don't have to.
So in respects to that, I do believe, in some way, I should learn to balance out what I learned with what I'm use to. It's advancing what I already enjoy, with what I learned. I think I have a difficult time incorporating things subtly.
Now I know what I should do. I will do my best to just DO. It's the most important thing. It's not wrong. If I find something that can be improved, I can improve it. I'll never have anything to show for myself, if I never create it. In my mind it will tend to dwell and live, but I won't see the results if I don't bring it to physical existence. More than anything, it's moreso for me and if people like it, I'll be happy. I will admit honestly, that having people enjoy something you create, kind of brings a feeling of togetherness. It shows that maybe I'm not so unusual in regards that I'm still very human. My ideas may be different, but that togetherness that we reach for with opened hands, is what brings us closer and closer together.
I'm all about togetherness. Be it near or far, beyond the limitation of skin, gender, and race, there is something in all of us that is very similar. It's not just the air we breath, the lungs in our chest, the heart that beats or the brains we fill with knowledge, it is this tiny piece we can't seem to reach because it's so silent and it observes, and it knows.
This is what I'm trying to reach.
With that said, I feel better. I'm going to get to work on reaching that point as much as possible.
Oh, by the way, I will start affirming every morning, that I do not lose sight of this purpose I'm purposing. I find that it's all to easy....with time, to fall off the true path. I understand that this can or will happen, it's all about connecting back to that true purpose. I will muster up strength, and I call forth supporting help to help me. Everyday I'll affirm that my head and my heart will stay clear. The path I want to walk, is one in which I can bring people closer and closer together. How I'll go about that? I'll do it by the means I have available with me now, and that's through my art and my stories. Even if it doesn't seem that my art has the meaning that I'm trying to portray, it doesn't matter. If it's sad, it will be sad. And you know what? People will see that it's sad. And sadness is something that we all feel at some point, and on some level. If it's funny, that is good too.
It's not to judge or be critical on whether or not what I'm creating is something that is a message. By this I mean, I don't want to think to much about the message. This is where I messed myself up lol this may work for some people, but I'm much more organic. I don't need to think about that because I feel and my work is based on this. I feel what my characters should do. I feel what they should say. I don't need to think about whether or not the message will be clear, because with feelings people will take the message as a feeling and not as a thought....sometimes.
So in that regards, now I'm done. If in some way this has helped you, I'm happy.
Now I should get to work.
Mon
So recently I haven't been in the mood to type....wait, I'll rephrase that, I have been wanting to type, but I haven't been in the mood to actually do the typing. It's been this way for about a year now....but it's become more intense these past few months.
I think it's seriously boiled down to my fear of messing up. I have a pretty idea of why this has surfaced and is a problem now. Throughout my life I've taken suggestions or words that others have said very personally. Yet, I understand now that doing this is kind of pointless. Why? It's simply because those people aren't living your life. If you're happy living a certain way and it's not harming anyone, than what they say really shouldn't matter.
Yet, we live in a culture where fitting in seems to be essential. No one wants to be a true outcast, as much as they would want to be an individual. This is the obstacle I'm faced with. Here's the thing, and I'll explain why I find this situation so perplexing to me. I'm aware of the issues, I know what I have to do, I'm just having a tough time doing it.
In the past (growing up), when I would draw a picture I never colored my human characters with dark skin. My sister and mom would always question why I didn't color my characters with darker skin. Of course I didn't feel compelled to. It had nothing to do with anything. I just thought "this color would look best for what I'm going for." So if I was to draw a character that is suppose to be of some humid and summer-like climate, I would probably color them with darker skin. Them constantly making that statement made me wonder if I was being biased with my drawings. I started to feel compelled to draw and color the way that would satisfy them.Then came my classes where I would do things the way I wanted to, only to have my teachers make comments that a different way is better. I would follow by this even though I didn't want to.
Suddenly, I soon began to realize that I just can't produce work without effort like I use to. During my middle school and early high school years I felt my work was effortless. I wasn't trying to please anyone. I was just drawing and I enjoyed doing it when I was bored in class. Yet, I started to realize that something was wrong. Things were flowing, but I was stifled. I had ideas, I would write them, only to find that I'm too tired to write. I had things coming, but I just don't feel like doing anything. Am I becoming lazy? Have I lost my "thing"?
I've come to this conclusion. Actually, it's been this way for a few days now that I've shut myself off. I'm being lazy from wanting to write (which is causing me to fall behind in my capstone class because I don't feel like writing and I have a 15 page paper that's due...I'll get to this later), drawing or creating anything in general. I'm just SO tired. The conclusion is that I've done this to myself. It's kind of like, if I can't be who I am, then why should I create anything? My soul has responded in this way.
I've been sleepy and all I want to do is sleep. Most days I'm just sitting and thinking absolutely nothing. I would feel so miserable! While everyone else is in my household having fun, I'm slump in my room trying to figure out what's wrong with me. I accounted this to me becoming very restless to the point of it being unbearable, and it truly has been. I pitch these ideas to people and they enjoy them, yet, I just can't seem to produce anything.
So what's the point in typing this? Well, I figured that if I write what I'm thinking and feeling, I will find some kind of release. I know that the most obvious thing to do is to just DO. Seriously, before I wrote this, I walked through this door and there were all these papers posted on the wall and all kinds of quotes from people who are story-writers. They all said similar things "just do it without restricting yourself" is the message I got. My teachers have been saying it. They say "you over think!" and I didn't think I did. I thought I was just trying to understand. I still think I do try to understand, but I try to understand things so well and so much, that I miss the true purpose, and that's just the experience of it.
I've lost light of my true enjoyment, and that's learning without trying to learn. It's understanding through experience, not trying to understand the experience. In the past, I would take what I get, feel something about it, dislike it or not, and move on. It was that simple. Now, I think think and think.
Art is not about thinking. It's simply about doing. It's not about understanding what's being done, it's about just feeling it and going along with it. These words that I'm typing now are flowing freely.
Even with blogging, I've been boggled down with wondering what I should and shouldn't type. The purpose, that I've come to understand, is that I should type what's on my mind or my heart. It means something to me, and it may or may not mean anything to me.
You see, when I type stories, I started to consider the people who will be viewing it, rather than what the characters would and wouldn't do, regardless of how silly or sad it becomes. I began to wonder what the viewers would like. This isn't a bad thing, but I've become so focused on this that I limit myself to my free flowing ideas.
From few experiences I've had where people questioned my work, I thought "I'd like to make them enjoy my work" when in reality, I can't make anyone like anything. They'll like or dislike what they want and the same holds true for me.
So to my capstone class. We have this paper that we have to write. Out of the whole 7 weeks, I've only gotten 4 pages done. As I said, I limited myself. So I would write what I can and feel miserable that I just don't get it. So my teacher ended up scolding me yesterday lol she told me I was complaining. I didn't want to believe I was complaining. She said that I should just write and that she's given me all the advice that she can, but I may not be getting it.
I'll say this, I was complaining, but not at her, at myself. It was frustrating that, although she gave me all this advice, I couldn't bring myself to just write. I know I can write because I blog so much lol
So, I won't just type this without a resolution. Here is my solution. I take what I learned about writing, consider the things I've been thought, but create the way I want. For example, in my 3D modeling class, my teacher was suggesting that I model to scale. Well, I like math, but I'm not good with measurements, or even simple math (don't judge me lol) So I instantly retorted "what if it's suppose to be this way?" he told me not to get sassy with him lol I won't lie, I do this when I'm trying to make a point lol What's funny is that it works?
Anyway, after researching why I should learn to build to scale, it was simply because it lights more realistically. WOOOO HOOOO! Why didn't he just say that? lol My question is, what if I didn't want realistic lighting? Anyway, I was being difficult. I ended up following his suggestion. In the end, I didn't have to. I never have to take anyone's advice but here's the thing: I did. And I've learned new things that I can use, but I that I don't have to.
So in respects to that, I do believe, in some way, I should learn to balance out what I learned with what I'm use to. It's advancing what I already enjoy, with what I learned. I think I have a difficult time incorporating things subtly.
Now I know what I should do. I will do my best to just DO. It's the most important thing. It's not wrong. If I find something that can be improved, I can improve it. I'll never have anything to show for myself, if I never create it. In my mind it will tend to dwell and live, but I won't see the results if I don't bring it to physical existence. More than anything, it's moreso for me and if people like it, I'll be happy. I will admit honestly, that having people enjoy something you create, kind of brings a feeling of togetherness. It shows that maybe I'm not so unusual in regards that I'm still very human. My ideas may be different, but that togetherness that we reach for with opened hands, is what brings us closer and closer together.
I'm all about togetherness. Be it near or far, beyond the limitation of skin, gender, and race, there is something in all of us that is very similar. It's not just the air we breath, the lungs in our chest, the heart that beats or the brains we fill with knowledge, it is this tiny piece we can't seem to reach because it's so silent and it observes, and it knows.
This is what I'm trying to reach.
With that said, I feel better. I'm going to get to work on reaching that point as much as possible.
Oh, by the way, I will start affirming every morning, that I do not lose sight of this purpose I'm purposing. I find that it's all to easy....with time, to fall off the true path. I understand that this can or will happen, it's all about connecting back to that true purpose. I will muster up strength, and I call forth supporting help to help me. Everyday I'll affirm that my head and my heart will stay clear. The path I want to walk, is one in which I can bring people closer and closer together. How I'll go about that? I'll do it by the means I have available with me now, and that's through my art and my stories. Even if it doesn't seem that my art has the meaning that I'm trying to portray, it doesn't matter. If it's sad, it will be sad. And you know what? People will see that it's sad. And sadness is something that we all feel at some point, and on some level. If it's funny, that is good too.
It's not to judge or be critical on whether or not what I'm creating is something that is a message. By this I mean, I don't want to think to much about the message. This is where I messed myself up lol this may work for some people, but I'm much more organic. I don't need to think about that because I feel and my work is based on this. I feel what my characters should do. I feel what they should say. I don't need to think about whether or not the message will be clear, because with feelings people will take the message as a feeling and not as a thought....sometimes.
So in that regards, now I'm done. If in some way this has helped you, I'm happy.
Now I should get to work.
Mon
Sunday, November 16, 2014
Things I've been up to recently
Good day fellow.....readers! Hi! :)
First thing first, I haven't worked out in like two weeks lol I feel horrible. I work out so I can feel as if I'm doing something good for my body. I do simple things such as drinking tea, I mainly drink water (besides coffee on some days) and I try to eat decent meals. I had a few kiwis these past few days *__* I was sooooo happy. And before that I had apples with peanut butter. I will say that I've been a bit of a piggy these past three days lol my sister got me a small bag of milano cookies on Friday. I had a few Friday evening, then I shared some with her, and yesterday I finished the whole bag. Of course I shared a few more with her when we had tea.
Then today I had two slices of cheesecake lol To make me more normal, I just woke up and haven't done a thing to my hair lol when I walked the dogs I just slapped a winter cap on my head. In other words, I've just been chilling and doing homework.
So yesterday I did only a 10 minute workout. I was winded lol It was horrible. You see, when I work out at least 3 times a week ( I find that 3 days out of the week is fine for me) I don't get winded quite as easily. Yet since I haven't worked out in two weeks, I didn't want to over do it. I thought a cardio workout would be good. TT__TT I seriously hate cardio but I wanted to burn off a bit of calories.
Since my school schedule is a bit strange, I don't get a chance to workout during the weekdays, but since I have off Thursday-Sunday, I decide to workout on those days. So I'm going to continue that workout. The total workout is 55 minutes. I was deciding to do 25 minutes yesterday and 25 minutes today....yeah that didn't happen lol So since I haven't been able to exercise much, instead of taking the train I would walk from campus to campus. It takes about 20 minutes to walk from one campus to the next. I also take the stairs instead of the elevator. It's not much, but it's better than nothing.
I've also been doing some 3D modeling stuff. Hm...I didn't know I could insert images in my blog lol I may start doing that. The amount of work they want us to do isn't a ridiculous amount...but I don't know what I'm doing lol so for me I'm trying my best to keep up. So on the days I have off, I'll play a video game for a while when I need to take a break from working on homework. So what I have to do is this, I have to watch these videos on the school portal. Most are about 3-10 hours in length, but not all at once, in order to learn as many skills as the teachers discuss in class, as possible. I have to do this while also trying to keep up with what they want us (the students) to have due the next class.
THEEEENNNN, I'm still dealing with my transfer credit situation. I'm seeing that this will be resolved soon. I have a bunch of great people trying their best to get my previous school to respond. So I'm just waiting.
I also checked out some new books and I've been reading those as well. :) Whenever I start to feel overwhelmed, I take a break. Sometimes I just want to take a break forever, but then I get bored of taking a break and I get back to work. I'm trying not to think of art as work. What I think it is is that I have to learn these new skills. In the past 4 months I've stuffed my brain with so much new stuff.
I read that this can cause the body fatigue....or something like this, because the brain can become tried. Our bodies rest in order to process all of this new information. When I found that out I thought it made sense why I always wanted to take naps in high school lol not only was my body growing, there were hormonal changes as well. At the time, during high school, every student would take 7 classes which would be about 50 minutes in length (if I remember correctly). That's like multi-tasking. I read that multi-tasking is actually not good for us. I didn't do much research on this topic, but I thought that was interesting.
Most of us are always forcing so much information into our brains. Hm...actually I am reading another book about the brain and how to use it properly. In a way I feel that we store information in our short term memory, and then forget it by next month. There's suppose to be some way to properly store information in order to remember it for years and years to come.
Because I'm a flip-flopper, I wanted to read this book and see if there's some tips on focusing. I don't necessarily consider this multi-tasking (what I do) because, although I move from one thing from another, when I move from one thing to the next, I'll spend hours on the next thing that I'm focusing on.
For example, if I have two novels. I'll read one, and after about an hour, or a get through 2 chapters, I'll start to read the next book. I'll always remember what I read. Hm....I think I'm pretty good at retaining information. It does take me a few seconds to recollect what I learned, but it comes eventually. Now, I do think I retain things in my short term memory. Why? Because I'll learn something and then stop using it. It has to be constant in order for it to be something that can be considered a true piece of memory.
Well, on to better topics. Next month I'll be continuing my webcomic. I was actually dreading the time I would have to work on it....in the past :) but now I feel a bit ready more and more. It's been 2 months since my last update. D: Well, luckily I haven't gotten too far into the next Chapter.
That's just about it. Now I I'm gonna do some more reading. I'm reading about obesity in America. Sometimes I watch this show called Supersize vs. Super Skinny (it's a show from the UK, and I love their accents), and people were pretty much attacking this person who commented stating that America is an obese country. The person wasn't trying to be mean about it, but of course when theirs an opinion expressed about weight, politics or religions, someone's always there to disagree.
So I got interested in this and decided to do a bit of reading about other people's opinion on the matter. So I'm gonna continue this and sip on this peppermint tea. :)
Until next time
Mon
First thing first, I haven't worked out in like two weeks lol I feel horrible. I work out so I can feel as if I'm doing something good for my body. I do simple things such as drinking tea, I mainly drink water (besides coffee on some days) and I try to eat decent meals. I had a few kiwis these past few days *__* I was sooooo happy. And before that I had apples with peanut butter. I will say that I've been a bit of a piggy these past three days lol my sister got me a small bag of milano cookies on Friday. I had a few Friday evening, then I shared some with her, and yesterday I finished the whole bag. Of course I shared a few more with her when we had tea.
Then today I had two slices of cheesecake lol To make me more normal, I just woke up and haven't done a thing to my hair lol when I walked the dogs I just slapped a winter cap on my head. In other words, I've just been chilling and doing homework.
So yesterday I did only a 10 minute workout. I was winded lol It was horrible. You see, when I work out at least 3 times a week ( I find that 3 days out of the week is fine for me) I don't get winded quite as easily. Yet since I haven't worked out in two weeks, I didn't want to over do it. I thought a cardio workout would be good. TT__TT I seriously hate cardio but I wanted to burn off a bit of calories.
Since my school schedule is a bit strange, I don't get a chance to workout during the weekdays, but since I have off Thursday-Sunday, I decide to workout on those days. So I'm going to continue that workout. The total workout is 55 minutes. I was deciding to do 25 minutes yesterday and 25 minutes today....yeah that didn't happen lol So since I haven't been able to exercise much, instead of taking the train I would walk from campus to campus. It takes about 20 minutes to walk from one campus to the next. I also take the stairs instead of the elevator. It's not much, but it's better than nothing.
I've also been doing some 3D modeling stuff. Hm...I didn't know I could insert images in my blog lol I may start doing that. The amount of work they want us to do isn't a ridiculous amount...but I don't know what I'm doing lol so for me I'm trying my best to keep up. So on the days I have off, I'll play a video game for a while when I need to take a break from working on homework. So what I have to do is this, I have to watch these videos on the school portal. Most are about 3-10 hours in length, but not all at once, in order to learn as many skills as the teachers discuss in class, as possible. I have to do this while also trying to keep up with what they want us (the students) to have due the next class.
THEEEENNNN, I'm still dealing with my transfer credit situation. I'm seeing that this will be resolved soon. I have a bunch of great people trying their best to get my previous school to respond. So I'm just waiting.
I also checked out some new books and I've been reading those as well. :) Whenever I start to feel overwhelmed, I take a break. Sometimes I just want to take a break forever, but then I get bored of taking a break and I get back to work. I'm trying not to think of art as work. What I think it is is that I have to learn these new skills. In the past 4 months I've stuffed my brain with so much new stuff.
I read that this can cause the body fatigue....or something like this, because the brain can become tried. Our bodies rest in order to process all of this new information. When I found that out I thought it made sense why I always wanted to take naps in high school lol not only was my body growing, there were hormonal changes as well. At the time, during high school, every student would take 7 classes which would be about 50 minutes in length (if I remember correctly). That's like multi-tasking. I read that multi-tasking is actually not good for us. I didn't do much research on this topic, but I thought that was interesting.
Most of us are always forcing so much information into our brains. Hm...actually I am reading another book about the brain and how to use it properly. In a way I feel that we store information in our short term memory, and then forget it by next month. There's suppose to be some way to properly store information in order to remember it for years and years to come.
Because I'm a flip-flopper, I wanted to read this book and see if there's some tips on focusing. I don't necessarily consider this multi-tasking (what I do) because, although I move from one thing from another, when I move from one thing to the next, I'll spend hours on the next thing that I'm focusing on.
For example, if I have two novels. I'll read one, and after about an hour, or a get through 2 chapters, I'll start to read the next book. I'll always remember what I read. Hm....I think I'm pretty good at retaining information. It does take me a few seconds to recollect what I learned, but it comes eventually. Now, I do think I retain things in my short term memory. Why? Because I'll learn something and then stop using it. It has to be constant in order for it to be something that can be considered a true piece of memory.
Well, on to better topics. Next month I'll be continuing my webcomic. I was actually dreading the time I would have to work on it....in the past :) but now I feel a bit ready more and more. It's been 2 months since my last update. D: Well, luckily I haven't gotten too far into the next Chapter.
That's just about it. Now I I'm gonna do some more reading. I'm reading about obesity in America. Sometimes I watch this show called Supersize vs. Super Skinny (it's a show from the UK, and I love their accents), and people were pretty much attacking this person who commented stating that America is an obese country. The person wasn't trying to be mean about it, but of course when theirs an opinion expressed about weight, politics or religions, someone's always there to disagree.
So I got interested in this and decided to do a bit of reading about other people's opinion on the matter. So I'm gonna continue this and sip on this peppermint tea. :)
Until next time
Mon
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