Tolerance

Hi!

So today my older sister and her boyfriend went to her friend's wedding. I know her friend, but I don't know her personally. Anyways, I know her enough to be happy for her and her family when something like this happens, so congrats to her family and her brother getting married!♥

Today I've been doing homework and I decided to take a break :) I ended up on fb and saw a post a friend had shared about Self-care, and one mentioned not to something along the lines of not accepting negativity or drama.

It made me think of my uncles. Recently I'm not very satisfied with their behavior and on a lot of occasions I  wouldn't even want to talk to them. I'd tell myself "blood related or not, a harmful/negative/bad action is what it is." I don't want to be around something like that. That being said, I tolerate them lol They're like bad kids sometimes.

I didn't have a distaste for both of my uncles until my mom told me something about the other. This morning I woke up a bit bitter and sour. Of course I just went about my day and worked on homework, waiting for it to wear off. It's bugging me this much but I didn't want to wallow on that feeling, and I feel a lot better.

I think I may be quite tolerable. I've never thought this of myself, but somehow knowing that it will eventually pass helps.

I know I shouldn't think of  this (I would say worry, but it's not the correct word) but I often believe that there's a way to not have to experience something painful. I mean, I've read that we experience what we put out there. And I think if people would be more aware of what they're doing, it wouldn't be so painful. Sometimes I wonder if we think karma is always bad. Karma is like a mirror, it reflects back what you place in front of it, however it's in physical terms.

I recently started reading this book about perception and the author spoke about how things are moving at a faster pace. So experiences, cause-and-effect etc., tend to happen quicker.

I don't like seeing people in pain, but I also know that it's been asked for. As humans, things like that are not pretty to us. But it's been chosen by the soul to experience. Staying in a hurtful relationship is a choice. Me choosing to stay with my mom is a choice. There's things that can be done, it's just some of us may not want to face this or we want to keep experiencing it. We are free to experience something new whenever we want. We pretend that there are outer obstacles, when more likely the obstacles are inner.

For example, recently I saw an article of a homeless student who graduated from high school. I didn't read the article, but it was enough for me to see that nothing is impossible! I know it may sound kind of cheesy, but if you don't believe you can do something, than chances are you won't be able to.

This is why I'm not fully against people who are religious. It gives them something to follow/believe in. Why would I hate that? It's like breaking a child's dream of being whatever they want to be in the future.

Without looking up the word (which I really want to do), I would say tolerance is having the ability to accept something without trying to change it. I've heard of this word, but I've never actually looked it up before. So I willingly tolerant, even though I don't have to. I can give to darns about anything, but I feel that would be dull and a waste of a life.

Well, that's my two cents. I'm gong relax for a while and get back to my homework.

Take care

Mon