I don't type here very often. Actually I'm indoors a lot more to be honest. That might scare people, but honestly I can't think of very many places I'd like to go at the moment. That's not to I haven't done anything at all this year. I have!
In June I went to Wisconsin Dells with my sister for about four days where we stayed at the Kalahari Resort! It was a lot of fun.
A photo of the hotel room.
Back to the topic. So we went there near the end of June for your younger sister's birthday, but we were out every single day. I was dead exhausted by the very last day and decided to stay in the hotel room the last evening we were there! We went to an indoor water park which was great! :D I convinced my younger sister to get on a water slide with me xD and it was hilarious because she doesn't do well with rides. I'm not a sadistic I swear lol But her reaction was hilarious.
This was an awesome fountain in the lobby heading towards our room!
We also visited a tiny little farm and saw some Llamas! :) I love Llamas now because of the movie The Emperor's New Groove. I like Kuzco. He starts out as this very arrogant whiny baby, but he ends up having a heart of gold near the end of the movie. Mostly I like the scene where he starts turning into a Llama and his adviser and her sidekick hit him over the head with a tray. It's a really great movie!
Actually it wasn't a Llama, it was a giraffe and some camels. I don't know why I thought I saw a Llama lol
We were able to get extremely close and some people were feeding it with the carrot sticks in their mouth. It was really weird...lol *Cue Christina Aguilera's I Am Beautiful*
Anyway, in July was me and my older sister's birthday. Her birthday was the very first week of July and mines was the second week. I can see why my mom would celebrate our birthdays all at once when we were kids lol
When my birthday came around I was like "Yeah, June was enough for me" lol because we did so much! I had a lot of fun with everyone.
In August, we found out my grandpa passed away. So we traveled to Mississippi for about three days. We spent so many hours on the road. It was about 10 hours to get there. Then the following day we had to travel 4 to 5 hours to get to the location where he would be buried. Mind you, my older sister did all of the driving (I'm so grateful for this, honestly!). The drive to and from was a bit scary as some of the areas were cover my water due to flooding, on both sides of the road and there were no guard rails lol Overall it was a hilarious trip.
During the final day we went to visit the birthplace of Elvis Presley!
It was neat to see there was a logbook at the reception desk with the names and location of people from all over the world who came to that exact location just to visit his birthplace! I even saw a few from Australia.
Also can I just say that Elvis had a very handsome face! I think his dark hair really brought out his blue eyes~~
In May, I went to a parade with my older sister and nephew. It was nice and they threw out candy. It wasn't very far from my house so we could easily walk back. I mostly took pictures of the trucks and cars as reference material lol It's safe to say that this is what you'd get if you take an artist or a photographer to a new location
Unfortunately I missed the clowns because I had to use the bathroom lol I ended up running home, came back and I missed the clowns. But I did get to see one more truck drive pass before the parade ended suddenly hahaha
And finally in April we went to see the new Avengers: Infinity War movie! It was great~~~ It was like an event because my older sister and I was anxiously awaiting this movie. My older sister cried during the movie haha
In the end, I thought this year was pretty great mostly because last year I had that bad allergy situation. I ended up working and became way too stressed. Although I'm still searching for at least some decent work, I have to say I think if I stayed while I was that overwhelmed it wouldn't have been pretty. I had to listen to my body. I was really having a tough time getting out of bed and at one point I even called off from work due to it (well actually multiple times).
I'm better now :) So I'm very happy. I think the moment I found out what it was it started to make sense to me. I'm allergic to cow's milk btw :P
As far as my art goes, I've been working on my webcomic. Very slowly may I add. At the moment no one is rushing me to get a new job but me, but it's because I feel very bad staying indoors so much. But my excuse is that it's because a lot of my work is done from a computer :P
Here's a link to my webcomic here:
http://www.smackjeeves.com/comicprofile.php?id=117786
The problem with me is that I'd either relax way too much, or I'll work way too much lol If I relax I feel unproductive or a bit guilty that I'm not working. And if I work too much or even just a few hours a day I feel like I'm neglecting the world. But I'm passionate nonetheless, even though it's tough work sometimes.
Sometimes I just stop for a day or two to just reflect to make sure I'm not pushing myself too much. I am constantly telling myself that it's okay if I'm not cranking out pages like a madwoman!I'm also trying to determine if I should just do this kind of work mostly and try to make a living from this, or if I should push myself to do more 3D work and try to get a job in the Game's industry.
The fact that there are many options is tough for me. But in the end, my ultimate goal is to try my hand at getting employment at Naughty Dogs! It's a gaming company in California! I love their work and how passionate they are about producing quality work to their audience. That is very important to me.
So as I mentioned in previous blogs I'm slowly learning to use Zbrush and Maya together and also learning Substance Painter and Substance Designer. It requires a lot of self-motivation to keep going. At least in school the consequences of not having an assignment done was a bad grade,but in life, alone, there are no grades. The only person I have to push myself is me. My friends and family can say "You can do it!" But I have to believe it first.
I'm also very critical of myself and I will go "I can fix this" or "I can be better at this", and this goes for character traits in myself as well. But I try not to be too hard on myself. To not do that I'll often find some inspiring quotes in books I happen to pick up :) I even found one in a game design book. It made me feel much better about my work and how I tend to work at a snail pace.
Maybe I shouldn't say I work slowly, but that I work on multiple things at once.
So currently while I'm trying to keep myself in touch with Maya, texturing, Zbrush and all these other software, my goal at the moment is to finish chapter 5 of my webcomic. I took about a year hiatus while I was finishing up my last year in college and I felt bad for my readers, but I knew the final year would be hectic and stressful.
After this, my younger sister to anxiously awaiting my next webcomic lol It deals with fashion and will be a slice of life comedy story. For years I've been planning this, but due to having to prioritize school and finishing those projects, I would just jot down ideas and revise. I still have a lot of projects from the years prior that I have to work on.
I'd also like to fix up my website and include some of my 2D animation.
So as I write this, yes it does seem like a lot, but you can see why I'm not trying to rush to cram everything in at once lol I'm working at a pace to not get overwhelmed. I know for sure that it's important for me to finish what I've started, but I also know that it's not uncommon for artist to have a bunch of unfinished pieces. If I don't finish a few, that's fine. I should finish the ones that interest me.
I've signed up to Art Station as well.
https://www.artstation.com/
There's a lot of great work there. Yet I'm not interested in those lol I'm interested in Naughty Dogs! haha Their name is in the career section. I'm more interested in catching a possible future employees eye, rather than gaining attention from other artist xD That's a shame, but it's the truth.
One thing I don't want to do, but I found myself slightly doing, is comparing myself to other artist. I had a few teachers that stressed that we should try to make our work similar to the work coming out of these AAA studios. That's a lot of unnecessary pressure.
I think some people think art is a competition rather than a form of expression. I didn't know our willingness to express was in competition with someone else's willingness to express! I've been viewing art the wrong way all these years xD
I didn't start out like that. I did enjoy my school, aside from the loan I have, but I love learning to hone my craft. Yeah they jammed a lot of biases into my brain that I have to find a way to work around, but I found it gave me a great foundation to work from. Since I've graduated I haven't stopped learning. I'm always reading something new or watching a new tutorial or re-watching the same tutorial until what I learn sticks.
Somehow, I'd be happy if I can find a place that wouldn't mind me saying "I don't know everything there is to know, but I'm willing to learn" and they'd be okay with that. But a part of me assumes that they search for some mystical unicorn capable of doing everything lol
I think, if I can create something and feel satisfied with it, that's enough for me.
That being said, that's my year so far! haha If you made it this far I appreciate it.
Now I should at least attempt to get something done today.
Byeeeee
Mon
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