No job fair

So the job fair was called off early. We ended up at the wrong place after walking through the heat for what felt like 10 minutes lol I don't really like the heat.

We thought it was at the college where I got the pamphlet but it was at a nearby high school. The event wasn't suppose to be over until 4 p.m. We made it to the high school at about 3 p.m. but as I said, it was cancelled. Well I'm not upset or anything. I'l find me a job eventually. In the meantime I've been thinking about what kind of job I'd like. First it would be one where my boss wouldn't try to impose on my school schedule. I'm sure there are people like this in the world lol Then it would pay a decent amount of money. At my last part-time job I was making only 7.25 an hour. It was pretty decent. :3 Mainly because I don't spend money like crazy. However, at the time my mom wasn't working so I was helping with the bills and groceries. Of course I look back and think how great it would've been to have still had that money, but I was happy helping out. I actually felt like I was lending a hand :3 So Although I may not have much money now, it's okay.

Well lately I've been thinking the reason I don't have a job now is because it's not time yet. Which is understandable. But that doesn't mean I won't sit around. Recently I've been thinking that I can't depend on my mom and older sister for everything. I have to learn to use what I have within myself to solve my own problems. I believe, this is how we become stronger. It's a bit nerve wrecking because since we've been kids we have been told how to do things, and to break from the comfort can be a little uncomfortable. But I feel that I have so much I can do and I'm selling myself short.

Of course one thing is to help with the community. It's not something I feel I need to do, or have to do, but I want to do this. To me it's kind of like improving. And :3 I like improvement. But I have to know that what I'm giving is being put to the use it's said it will be put. So I think to myself sometimes "what if I start my own organization?" in that case I would know that the money is going to the right cause. Lately I've been doing online survey's, and there's this donation thing to help with the environment. It seems like a good thing, but I'm not sure if it works. I would need to be in person to experience it first-hand. I feel that a lot of what people offer could be taken for granted. Those are the kinds of things I'm looking out for.

If someone is going to lend a hand and swear by it, don't become greedy. :( Some people actually care y'know.

Anyways, I'm gonna take a nap.

Mon