So I found I have a difficult time watching stuff about past lives. I'm greatly interested in reading about it or watching documentaries about them, but when traumatic things happen in regards to those lives I really struggle! haha I feel and envision what some of these people have gone through and it hurts my heart. I think it's also why I can easily learn from other people. If someone were to share something about their lives, my heart gets super heavy.
Personally I don't mind hearing them, but I don't like the feeling. I guess the one benefit is that it wears off when I step away from it. But still really tough.
If you're wondering what I'm talking about, it's about a t.v. series where parents talk about their children who speak of past lives early on in their lives. The one that touched my heart was about a young man named Jamey. He had a past life as (what he believes as well as his parents) a man named Thomas Anderson. As a child he has night terrors for two years where he had dreams he was dying. He had a fascination with the ship and drew a bunch of pictures of it.
The part that made me sad was that he felt responsible for the people in the boiler room dying first. As a child, he said that they shouldn't have died at all and that the ship was poorly built. That the ship was constructed using iron rather than steel. And that the security measures are what sealed those poor souls in the boiler room.
It was apparent that he had such strong feelings over the incident that it carried over into this life. It was just very saddening.
I am glad that he's found a way to work over it though :) He's also working as a 3d modeler/animator! :D That makes me happy because so did I haha
Anyway, as intriguing as it is hearing these stories, it's the heart wrenching parts that really tug at my heartstrings. Sometimes I wish pain and sadness were things we just didn't have to experience, but I get why it exist. Saying that I wish sadness isn't a thing is like saying happiness doesn't exist. The polar opposite exist as a means to help us understand duality. You can't understand happiness without knowing pain. It's a feeling that doesn't have to be permanent depending on whether or not we continue to cling to it.
But is it definitely saddening to see others experience it. It's just the urge to want to help, but knowing that with time that person will heal. It's all a part of their journey.
I guess the best way to describe it is traveling on foot. Knowing that everyone is traveling, but each person experiences their travel in their own way. That everyone is given the same amount of resources, but that some will choose to either think they have access to none due to the limitations of their views, or take from someone else. These options are a thing due to freewill. If I were to step in, does it help the person see the resources provided around them? Chances are they would have to open their eyes to see.
Now, imagine that there are those who do see/can see, and they are preaching along the side of the road, telling the others that these resources exist. It's up to the bystanders who are traveling to heed the words and look for themselves.
So in the travels people may get hurt as well. The other travelers can help or keep going while turning a blind eye.
This is as close to how I view the world as I can explain. I usually use the actors on stage analogy, but I think explaining it this way may give a better idea of what it's like to view painful situations. I don't like it. Yet they continue to happen. This is what bothers me the most.
But I will say that I am seeing a shift. It's slow, but more people are opening up to a lot more of the progressive ideas such as reincarnation, meditation and the likes. Due to this, it's like a ripple effect. If everyone focuses on wanting the same future, I think it's possible.
The world is a strange place, simply because I feel like we bounce back in forth between polarities. Perhaps one day we can settle in one. Apparently there was a golden age in ancient Greece. I wouldn't be surprised if this is true as so many innovative things came from that period in time. So many great minds. I'm sure they had their problems, but as far as progressive things and innovative ideas, we are only progressing on a technological level.
Well, that's all for now. Just wanted to get these thoughts out.
Mon
