Howdy!
The quarter has finally ended! Well, actually it ended on Wednesday, but somehow I feel an empty void where my homework struggles should be lol I only have a week off though, and during that week off (even at the moment) I'm packing up to move. What fun, right?! Actually, it's kind of not. It means most of my focus would be on moving, packing and unpacking. Don't get me wrong, I'm very happy my mom has finally purchased her own home, which means no more moving...for her lol but when I'm well and on my way I'll have to pack up and move.
Anyways, this quarter was a tiny bit hectic. It was only hectic because I was learning a new software and trying to work on the class assignment all at the same time within 11 weeks. I'm not sure if I passed the class, but somehow my outlook on the situation seems a bit positive even if I do fail the class. I personally don't like being graded on my work (I kind of never did), but I do love learning, and I know that although I can absorb things quickly, it takes me some time to learn to apply it.
So this was my situation and my teacher told me he thinks I'm not ready for the second portion of the class. Of course I was broken up about it because I really REALLY worked very hard. It was tough to hear him say that because I really tried. Yet, I woke up one morning and thought to myself that if I take the class again, it only leaves more room for improvement. In 11 weeks I do think my work has improved, but I imagine to myself what I can produce if I'm given 11 more weeks.
The only concern I have are my loans. This is usually always the set back because I don't have control over that. *sighs* Unfortunately, there will be things out of our controls, and I just seriously hope for the best. I feel that even when I feel I should despair, it's the best time to have the most faith. I once read that when things seem to be spiraling out of control, it's our lives being put into it's correct place. So when we feel everything is spinning out of control, everything is actually falling into place.
What helps me get over my slumps are reading things by other people who have gotten over a hurdle or obstacle, or even when I see my peers working just as hard. Inspirational speeches help boost my mood as well. I'm always looking for a way to lift my spirits! But even I dislike hardships. They can sometimes take a toll. It seriously makes me want to take a nap! lol
Overall, I made it :) I didn't quite finish my final assignment for my other class (I only took two classes) because I sacrificed the time I could have used to complete it, on my portfolio class which is the prerequisite for portfolio 2, which is what I need to pass in order to graduate. Do you see why I was so hurt?
But, seriously, once I got passed my hurt feelings, I had to think about what my teacher said. He wasn't downing me, and even admitted that he recognized my drive and effort, but that my technical skill wasn't up to par. And it's true. So he more than likely had good intentions. As far as my financial situation goes, if it's meant to be, I'm sure it will be. I just hope the universe has mercy on me lol I guess I do have passion to achieve and can be ambitious when I feel challenged.
Well anyways, at the moment I'm reading an article about perseverance. It's something I kind of lack when it comes to homework and completing projects. My mind is sometimes like a little hamster on a wheel. I just want to go to new projects whenever I feel bored with something. So I'm just gonna keep reading about perseverance until I believe I can persevere lol
One interesting fact from the article that I've come across in two separate articles, is to visualize the the resolution and to stop focusing on the problem. This could come in handy! Because I don't quite do this. Recently, perhaps I am, little by little, which is better than nothing. So I just have to keep at it until I really get it! I can't wait to get over this! I have things I'd like to complete.
Oh! I have realized that sometimes when I awake in the morning, I'll start to think about ways I can do things in order to complete or get something done for my 3D assignments. I guess it's like my teacher said "just go for it!" Literally the worse that could happen is that my models come out with strange edge loops, but I can fix that. The only way to get better is to keep trying. Giving up is seriously not an option. Relaxing is though :)
So I haven't had a clear enough mind to type because of homework, and moving and just all around hectic-ness, but I'm good for now. I'd like to keep the flow I gained from this quarter in order to get a few things done, but perhaps I should allow myself to wind down a but as well. Don't want to burn myself out.
Mon
