Hi!!!
I'm so happy right now :) Recently my I've been on quite an emotional roller-coaster with the current issues occurring in the world. I don't often vocalize what I feel towards those events, but I do go into deep thought about them. During those moments I find that my feelings/thoughts can be conflicting. Fortunately I only become grumpy with others when I'm sleepy or really into doing something, never for no reason at all (despite what I'm feeling). So I have to say that that's a plus.
Annnnnyyyway, I visited my old campus in Tinley Park! I also visited the Target there. I love it! The people waiting in line where so nice. One old man, while putting his two items on the conveyor belt, said "you can go ahead and buy mines too if you want" lol I couldn't help but laugh. Sometimes I wonder if I seem uninterested in what people say, but that's not the thing at all! I just can't think of what to say at the moment so I just get quiet lol The cashier didn't seem so happy.
Back the point, I visited my old campus. I felt great afterwards! It was the one thing I wanted to do because I didn't feel like I had a proper departure. Also my old teacher got married in August! I couldn't stop smiling~~ xD I ended up getting her a gift, a pair of glasses, and she said I was nuts for coming all that way to give it to her. I explained that before I left I wanted to get her a gift. The moment I found out that she was engaged I wanted to get her a gift.
A lot of people that I knew weren't there, supposedly a lot of people from that campus that attended the one downtown, dropped out :/ I can't say why, but I was explaining to the security guard that there's a noticeable difference between the two campuses and the way the teachers teach. Luckily I've attended the campus downtown before, so I had an idea of what to expect! I also think the campus could be too far for a lot of the students. I hope they're all well and good though :/ I wonder if they made it far in their major. Well, hopefully they find something else they enjoy doing, or at least find another school to attend and things work out.
I did speak to one student that I knew when I attended. He's a senior now too, and he got engaged in March....or was it May? It was one of those months. He's a funny guy and he always loved talking, so I was surprised and imaging him proposing seems for foreign to me! But I was happy for him too. It seems a lot of people are getting married :)
I looked around the school a bit, it felt very empty, almost similar to when you're moving things out of a house to move into a new house, but it was the same school. The departments were closed, and the security guard told me that they let a lot of people go already. I feel for those who may have lost their jobs, but I at least hope they were simply just relocated. At least then they wouldn't be out of work.
As I was leaving the building, I felt like I could simply close that door and wait to make it to another one and open it. My teacher wants me to keep in contact of all the new projects I'll be working on. Of course I'll do the same here. :)
Today was a pretty good day. Oh! I also tried a Hazel Latte! It was amazing! I can't quite describe the taste and I can't tell if it Hazel is spice. I mean, it might be right? Because nutmeg is a spice. Anyway, I've never had Hazelnut before. I was tempted to try a pumpkin spice latte, but I already told the guy Hazelnut and he walked off while I was thinking "But I wanted to try the pumpkin spice" lol xD Well it was yummy regardless and I thought that it's a good replacement for it.
I also had a great conversation with the manager of one at my bank...it was at a different location. She was super nice and very informative! We talked for a long time despite the fact that she was suppose to be helping my sister lol She even said "this started out with me dealing with your sister" and I had to apologize, but the information she was sharing made me so happy and grateful to her for going through the trouble of answering my questions.
After that event, that's when I got a coffee.
You know, on some days like this, I think to myself that it's a great day and I'm not sure how the next will be, but all that matters is this day and the feeling it gives me. :) I'm happy that even though I'm on another break from school, despite minor issues, things have been going well.
Well, that's all for now. :)
Mon
Tuesday, November 24, 2015
Wednesday, November 18, 2015
The Creation of Adam
During my last year of high school I decided to go all out. I don't mean I asked for a prom date or anything (prom was pretty weird for me lol but I had fun), but I tried out for two plays, tried out for a lead part in choir, and made the conscious choice to pass all my classes with As. I'm not sure if I got all As, but I remember passing my Algebra class all the way up until graduation. But of all of those things, as an art project I painted a picture of Leonardo Da Vinci's The Creation of Adam.
I think it was just an unconscious choice during that time, but since I took an Art Appreciation class at a community college, I can say I've grown to really like a lot of his work. He seemed to have been a very brilliant man. I'm always thinking that it would've been nice to just spend a day chatting with him, then again, I'm not sure what his personality was like lol
Anyway, during my senior year I painted the image you see above on a chair. I'm wondering if the school still has the chair. During the time when I painted it and the time when I finished it, I thought it turned out very well. Since viewing a few of his pieces I've really fallen in love with the softness that his painting exhibits! I'm a fan of soft earthy pastel colors, so a lot of his works are very pleasing to my eyes.
To be honest, I would often think "I wish I kept that chair!" lol I wonder if the chair is still there. I'd love to visit and check it out when I can. When I do visit, I'll take a picture. It might not look as good lol But I feel out of all of the things I decided to try, I was happy to have taken that painting class. When I first practiced painting (and even now that I tried it again recently) I found I was so stiff, rigid and a but timid and intimidated by the experience because it was so new to me.
The teacher would say "Just relax, allow your wrist to do the work" because I was painting as if I were drawing. She would explain that painting is loose and free. For me, I guess this life I'm the opposite lol Interestingly enough, I'm in the field of art and I always assumed artist are free people.
Anyway, two or three paintings later I found that my work looked quite decent.
This was one based on a still life. It was a class assignment. I have another one of clouds and mountains but have to find it. This was way back in 2008. I haven't painted anything since. Recently I've been quite tired and haven't produced anything worthwhile, but *shrugs* meh, the only thing I can do is wait. Well, actually I've been doing other things. During my high school days art was a way for me to escape the fact that I was there lol I loved the art room with it's paint covered sinks, and drawing tables. It was the one place, besides choir, that I felt relaxed.
Mon
Tuesday, November 17, 2015
Psychic Investigators
I'm watching this show on Netflix called Psychic Investigators and I thought "It would be so awesome if more people came together to mix both intuition with facts." I wonder if this is more common than I know. Perhaps I should look into it more.
Mainly the show is about missing persons' cases, and the police turn to a psychic for information that could help.
Now the issue with this is those psychics who are sitting on a high horse lol I don't want to say they're wrong, but I wonder if there are people out there who sit on a pedestal after honing their abilities. I'm guessing it can be similar to those who claim they're better than another because they are vegan, or a Christians, or a good actor/actress, or a great singer, etc. Things of that nature.
It reminds me of a lady, I use to enjoy her books, her name was Sylvia Browne, but she passed a few years ago. I saw a video on youtube and people were mocking her, calling her a fact and all. They said that she was usually benefiting from people's money. I'm not gonna deny that she may have been psychic, but I can see how people would feel a bit of disdain towards her.In one video she was so stuck on the way of how two parents' child died, that even though they told her that wasn't how it happened, she constantly stated that it was. I actually felt kind of bad and it makes me wonder if people who use their gift in such a way will be given false information from their source, as a hopeful way of the person being able to look within themselves and realize that the way they're doing thing is actually not the best.
Back to the point! So I was thinking, it would be interesting if doctors were assisted with this. I got the thought of a psychic lending information to a doctor, and a doctor can look into it to find a possible cure.
I mean, a do believe everyone as psychic abilities, but there are some who are naturally tapped into it. By this I mean that some people have to hone their skill, but others just have it. Kind of like a natural born pianist or any other skill that a child just HAS and it comes naturally, while there are those who have to take classes and practice. That's not to say that people who naturally tap into their abilities without a problem don't have to hone their abilities, it's just their abilities just happen.
I use to watch this show on t.v. called Paranormal kids (can I just say how much I love Chip Coffey!) and the children often felt that their gifts were a burden and couldn't control them. Other mediums would come and teach them not to fear, give them advice and suggestions to follow when they become terrified, and tell them that they are in control of their abilities.
I would often think "it would be neat to be able to see auras, or assist the dead!" but in my bones I would feel a bit frighten and wonder if that's what I really want lol My whole deal is that I would love to help people in some way, but I don't have to see the dead to assist them, I could help someone they know that if living. I don't have to see aura to help heal someone with alternative medicine.
My theory is that some have the ability without issues because they are meant to, and others like me, we have it to a degree, but maybe during the stages of our life, it isn't completely necessary and we have other things we should focus on. That doesn't mean we neglect our ability, it's there, it's just that we are on autopilot! And if needed, we'll be alerted by higher beings :)
But I still think it's awesome to blend the two. A world where psychics aren't called crazy because the truth that they gain from the Other side can be found with proof from the material world. I say this, and I'm sure it can easily be disputed, because if I can an idea, I can work to manifest it into physical reality. The difference is that what I see no one else can see until I make it something that can physically be seen, BUT, it still exist within the invisible realm.
That's where ideas and inventions come from. I'm a bit baffled that people rebuke the imagination as childish and ridiculous and not able to live within the real world, when in reality, a lot of what we have actually came from that world.
*childish voice* "What world???" The world of the unseen. Ideas and dreams are nothing more than that. They stop being an idea and an actual word when we give it definition and categorize it. That's why I don't think we should separate ourselves so much. It may happen to an extent, due to grouping, but it can be due to programming and culture.
Anyway, that's all I have to say. No ranting from this lady :)
Until the next Blog
Mon
Mainly the show is about missing persons' cases, and the police turn to a psychic for information that could help.
Now the issue with this is those psychics who are sitting on a high horse lol I don't want to say they're wrong, but I wonder if there are people out there who sit on a pedestal after honing their abilities. I'm guessing it can be similar to those who claim they're better than another because they are vegan, or a Christians, or a good actor/actress, or a great singer, etc. Things of that nature.
It reminds me of a lady, I use to enjoy her books, her name was Sylvia Browne, but she passed a few years ago. I saw a video on youtube and people were mocking her, calling her a fact and all. They said that she was usually benefiting from people's money. I'm not gonna deny that she may have been psychic, but I can see how people would feel a bit of disdain towards her.In one video she was so stuck on the way of how two parents' child died, that even though they told her that wasn't how it happened, she constantly stated that it was. I actually felt kind of bad and it makes me wonder if people who use their gift in such a way will be given false information from their source, as a hopeful way of the person being able to look within themselves and realize that the way they're doing thing is actually not the best.
Back to the point! So I was thinking, it would be interesting if doctors were assisted with this. I got the thought of a psychic lending information to a doctor, and a doctor can look into it to find a possible cure.
I mean, a do believe everyone as psychic abilities, but there are some who are naturally tapped into it. By this I mean that some people have to hone their skill, but others just have it. Kind of like a natural born pianist or any other skill that a child just HAS and it comes naturally, while there are those who have to take classes and practice. That's not to say that people who naturally tap into their abilities without a problem don't have to hone their abilities, it's just their abilities just happen.
I use to watch this show on t.v. called Paranormal kids (can I just say how much I love Chip Coffey!) and the children often felt that their gifts were a burden and couldn't control them. Other mediums would come and teach them not to fear, give them advice and suggestions to follow when they become terrified, and tell them that they are in control of their abilities.
I would often think "it would be neat to be able to see auras, or assist the dead!" but in my bones I would feel a bit frighten and wonder if that's what I really want lol My whole deal is that I would love to help people in some way, but I don't have to see the dead to assist them, I could help someone they know that if living. I don't have to see aura to help heal someone with alternative medicine.
My theory is that some have the ability without issues because they are meant to, and others like me, we have it to a degree, but maybe during the stages of our life, it isn't completely necessary and we have other things we should focus on. That doesn't mean we neglect our ability, it's there, it's just that we are on autopilot! And if needed, we'll be alerted by higher beings :)
But I still think it's awesome to blend the two. A world where psychics aren't called crazy because the truth that they gain from the Other side can be found with proof from the material world. I say this, and I'm sure it can easily be disputed, because if I can an idea, I can work to manifest it into physical reality. The difference is that what I see no one else can see until I make it something that can physically be seen, BUT, it still exist within the invisible realm.
That's where ideas and inventions come from. I'm a bit baffled that people rebuke the imagination as childish and ridiculous and not able to live within the real world, when in reality, a lot of what we have actually came from that world.
*childish voice* "What world???" The world of the unseen. Ideas and dreams are nothing more than that. They stop being an idea and an actual word when we give it definition and categorize it. That's why I don't think we should separate ourselves so much. It may happen to an extent, due to grouping, but it can be due to programming and culture.
Anyway, that's all I have to say. No ranting from this lady :)
Until the next Blog
Mon
Friday, November 6, 2015
Projects
Hi!
Today I figured I'd just write a bit about what I've been up to. Usually I would say I'm relaxing, and don't get me wrong, I have, but I've also been trying to keep up with the programs I learned from school.
One of the things I've been doing is following along with a few tutorials on this website called digital tutors.
My main focus for now is understanding the basics of modeling. Although I'm in my senior year I've been thought a few techniques that...well aren't the best lol Because I attended two different schools that taught things differently, when I returned to the original campus where I started out, they were confused by the way I was modeling and said the way I worked was time consuming.
I've also started over with learning the basics of 3D animating. This weekend I'd like to set aside some time to work on a 2D animation I haven't gotten around to finishing. I have two that are quite a bit of time and I'd like to complete those so I can add them to my demo reel.
I've also started learning the basics of a gaming program called Unreal Engine. I started this only a few days ago out of sheer excitement. I'll only learn a few things and continue working in Maya (the screenshot above is from the maya software).
What I'm planning to do is to finish up this model, then watch a few videos on texturing (although the tutorial I'm using has a texture portion), then I'll watch some videos on lighting so I can light the scene. I would like to rig this squirrel character that I downloaded from the project file and animate them in this environment. So that way everything I'm working on as a purpose ;)
But I have been relaxing. I started watching American Horror Story. It can get bizarre sometimes, but it's pretty interesting. I like weird stuff lol
With my nephews birthday out of the way and I don't have to work on any small projects for that, I decided to dedicate my time to doing/learning a few things that I'm interested in. I have all of this month and all of next month, then I return to school the month after that. If I can up my skill level and modeling abilities, I'd be super happy. So I'm putting forth the time and effort to do so.
If I'm lucky I'd like to start working on the next chapter to my webcomic. I already posted to the readers that I'd be taking classes this quarter, I haven't told them that I'm not. Shhhh! Don't say anything! lol I didn't say anything because I will be working behind the scenes on a few pages. I want to finish up a few of my projects, and then focus on that. Then I'll surprise them when winter break rolls around. :)
I told them it would be a while until I post anything, but I think it'd make a nice surprise to shower them with a bunch of updates. :) That's my grand scheme. heh heh
That's what I've been working on, and that's what I plan to work on for these next few weeks.
Oh! Btw, I finished up my scarecrow model. I also found a few human face references that I'd like to practice modeling as well. It sounds like a lot, but I feel that if I manage my time, I can get quite a bit done. I make sure I have an hour of two where I play video games or watch something funny to relax. Or while I'm working I'll wonder off into the interweb and dally around lol
That's all for now.Until next time
Mon
Today I figured I'd just write a bit about what I've been up to. Usually I would say I'm relaxing, and don't get me wrong, I have, but I've also been trying to keep up with the programs I learned from school.
One of the things I've been doing is following along with a few tutorials on this website called digital tutors.
My main focus for now is understanding the basics of modeling. Although I'm in my senior year I've been thought a few techniques that...well aren't the best lol Because I attended two different schools that taught things differently, when I returned to the original campus where I started out, they were confused by the way I was modeling and said the way I worked was time consuming.
I've also started over with learning the basics of 3D animating. This weekend I'd like to set aside some time to work on a 2D animation I haven't gotten around to finishing. I have two that are quite a bit of time and I'd like to complete those so I can add them to my demo reel.
I've also started learning the basics of a gaming program called Unreal Engine. I started this only a few days ago out of sheer excitement. I'll only learn a few things and continue working in Maya (the screenshot above is from the maya software).
What I'm planning to do is to finish up this model, then watch a few videos on texturing (although the tutorial I'm using has a texture portion), then I'll watch some videos on lighting so I can light the scene. I would like to rig this squirrel character that I downloaded from the project file and animate them in this environment. So that way everything I'm working on as a purpose ;)
But I have been relaxing. I started watching American Horror Story. It can get bizarre sometimes, but it's pretty interesting. I like weird stuff lol
With my nephews birthday out of the way and I don't have to work on any small projects for that, I decided to dedicate my time to doing/learning a few things that I'm interested in. I have all of this month and all of next month, then I return to school the month after that. If I can up my skill level and modeling abilities, I'd be super happy. So I'm putting forth the time and effort to do so.
If I'm lucky I'd like to start working on the next chapter to my webcomic. I already posted to the readers that I'd be taking classes this quarter, I haven't told them that I'm not. Shhhh! Don't say anything! lol I didn't say anything because I will be working behind the scenes on a few pages. I want to finish up a few of my projects, and then focus on that. Then I'll surprise them when winter break rolls around. :)
I told them it would be a while until I post anything, but I think it'd make a nice surprise to shower them with a bunch of updates. :) That's my grand scheme. heh heh
That's what I've been working on, and that's what I plan to work on for these next few weeks.
Oh! Btw, I finished up my scarecrow model. I also found a few human face references that I'd like to practice modeling as well. It sounds like a lot, but I feel that if I manage my time, I can get quite a bit done. I make sure I have an hour of two where I play video games or watch something funny to relax. Or while I'm working I'll wonder off into the interweb and dally around lol
That's all for now.Until next time
Mon
Sunday, November 1, 2015
Life is like a book
Soooooo
Hi~
I'm reading an inspirational article and I came across something I wanted to share. First, can I just say that sometimes when I walk into the self-improvement section of a bookstore I start to get really self-conscious lol But in libraries I don't. Isn't that weird!? What's even stranger is that no one is around lol I guess it's similar to purchasing feminine products for the first time xD I probably need to browse the self-improvement section often.
Back to the article I read!
There was this statement:
"Let today be the day you stop being haunted by the ghosts from your past. What happened in the past is just one chapter in your story; don’t close the book, just turn the page."
I instantly thought "I agree!!"
Because I love reading, this rang as a very interesting statement. When I'm reading a book, if something sad happens to a character, I'm much more interested in knowing what good will happen to them, or will the story will take them. I'll never know if I keep reading the same part again and again, but as I progress through the chapters. The whole story makes sense, or the character has grown once I've gotten to the end....that is...if the author even cared lol
I've also been thinking a bit about how small I am in comparison to the rest of the universe. That's insanely small, but then I get to thinking about things that are small among us here on earth and I don't think those things are unimportant to life, so why should I think that way about myself? Recently a lot of things are quite lovely to me...besides fleas....and hornets, what are their purpose but to cause problems lol Maybe we have some hornets and fleas in life as well, but maybe they're there to help us appreciate them,even if we don't understand them very well. Pest? Definitely. Unworthy of life? Hm...no comment lol (I don't like fleas, just recently dealt with a flea infestation)
The thing is that I have a positive view on things, it's just I don't want to become too much of a dreamer. Growing up, I've always been very right brained. For example, in elementary (I can't believe I'm telling this story lol) I was a first grader, and I use to like this fifth grader. Everyday during lunch he would ask me for some kind of food from my tray, such as my fries or my dessert, and I'd end up giving him the whole thing rather than a piece of it lol I would still be a bit hungry, but I was happy in some way, yet I would hope he would notice my feelings for him (at that age I had no idea what I was feeling!)
But that's the mind I had as a kid. As I got older, the world started to become a little less bright and a bit more darker, and intimidating. But I think that it helps me to see things in a realistic fashion. I see beauty, but I also know there's the ugly in life as well. I tend to want to just ignore those things rather than accept them, but it doesn't make them disappear.
I think what's tough is...well, I imagine it like this. You are standing on a platform that spins clockwise in a very very slow manner. Now around you are images, and they play out in a linear fashion, kind of like seeing a movie. So when you see a movie for the first time, a lot of things don't make sense, sometimes even when you make it to the end, but it makes more sense than it did in the beginning right?
Each and everything intricate piece is a piece needed for the greater whole. So although it seems dark and dirty and wrong and all this other stuff, it may be used to raise self-awareness to the whole. I mean, if we don't see it, we don't know it exist and it's not a problem.
But each piece is a letter to a word, that is a word to a sentence, that is a sentence to a paragraph, that becomes a page to a chapter, and a chapter to a novel. And if we spend too much time getting caught up in the word, we miss the point, that there is a meaning behind those words. :)
Life, itself isn't complicated, it's the parts that we add to it, the parts we contribute to it, that make it complicated.
Have a great day
Mon :)
Hi~
I'm reading an inspirational article and I came across something I wanted to share. First, can I just say that sometimes when I walk into the self-improvement section of a bookstore I start to get really self-conscious lol But in libraries I don't. Isn't that weird!? What's even stranger is that no one is around lol I guess it's similar to purchasing feminine products for the first time xD I probably need to browse the self-improvement section often.
Back to the article I read!
There was this statement:
"Let today be the day you stop being haunted by the ghosts from your past. What happened in the past is just one chapter in your story; don’t close the book, just turn the page."
I instantly thought "I agree!!"
Because I love reading, this rang as a very interesting statement. When I'm reading a book, if something sad happens to a character, I'm much more interested in knowing what good will happen to them, or will the story will take them. I'll never know if I keep reading the same part again and again, but as I progress through the chapters. The whole story makes sense, or the character has grown once I've gotten to the end....that is...if the author even cared lol
I've also been thinking a bit about how small I am in comparison to the rest of the universe. That's insanely small, but then I get to thinking about things that are small among us here on earth and I don't think those things are unimportant to life, so why should I think that way about myself? Recently a lot of things are quite lovely to me...besides fleas....and hornets, what are their purpose but to cause problems lol Maybe we have some hornets and fleas in life as well, but maybe they're there to help us appreciate them,even if we don't understand them very well. Pest? Definitely. Unworthy of life? Hm...no comment lol (I don't like fleas, just recently dealt with a flea infestation)
The thing is that I have a positive view on things, it's just I don't want to become too much of a dreamer. Growing up, I've always been very right brained. For example, in elementary (I can't believe I'm telling this story lol) I was a first grader, and I use to like this fifth grader. Everyday during lunch he would ask me for some kind of food from my tray, such as my fries or my dessert, and I'd end up giving him the whole thing rather than a piece of it lol I would still be a bit hungry, but I was happy in some way, yet I would hope he would notice my feelings for him (at that age I had no idea what I was feeling!)
But that's the mind I had as a kid. As I got older, the world started to become a little less bright and a bit more darker, and intimidating. But I think that it helps me to see things in a realistic fashion. I see beauty, but I also know there's the ugly in life as well. I tend to want to just ignore those things rather than accept them, but it doesn't make them disappear.
I think what's tough is...well, I imagine it like this. You are standing on a platform that spins clockwise in a very very slow manner. Now around you are images, and they play out in a linear fashion, kind of like seeing a movie. So when you see a movie for the first time, a lot of things don't make sense, sometimes even when you make it to the end, but it makes more sense than it did in the beginning right?
Each and everything intricate piece is a piece needed for the greater whole. So although it seems dark and dirty and wrong and all this other stuff, it may be used to raise self-awareness to the whole. I mean, if we don't see it, we don't know it exist and it's not a problem.
But each piece is a letter to a word, that is a word to a sentence, that is a sentence to a paragraph, that becomes a page to a chapter, and a chapter to a novel. And if we spend too much time getting caught up in the word, we miss the point, that there is a meaning behind those words. :)
Life, itself isn't complicated, it's the parts that we add to it, the parts we contribute to it, that make it complicated.
Have a great day
Mon :)
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