Amygdala and Brain Hacking

 I figured I'd place this here. 

It's been a while since I've just done a complete brain dump. I've been busy working on other things, and surprisingly, my mind has been keeping up (aside from the days where I either just felt so tired/sleepy throughout the day, or just can't sleep at all). 

Tonight I decided to read a bit about brain-hacking, mostly how to get the most out of brain's potential, and the word "amygdala" kept coming up. I've never seen the word (and if I had, it would have been many years ago when I was in middle school), so I looked it up. Mostly it helps with the processing of emotions and other abilities of the brain such as memories, sense and learning. 

What stuck me was the emotions and the sense part! When it comes to the brain and the body, I often wonder how the soul plays a huge part in it. So as I'm staring off, I'm like "what's the connection and how does it work??" and I started thinking about the soul as being the battery that powers the body!

Now I'm not sure if this is correct, but I found it a pretty interesting image. 

I'm sure the connection is there, right in our faces, but it's missed. To me, trying to figure this out if like trying to capture air in your hands. We all know air exist, but how to tangibly make sense of the fact that our hand is holding air, without attempting to convince our minds that it's so. 

Interestingly enough, I do believe that in the future, we'll come to integrate science and metaphysics. We simply need that nudge that will make us go "Oh! That makes sense!" 

For me, it's a realm of possibilities, and as long as something is possible, I believe it can become truth. I do think we live in a realm of limitations...or perhaps false limitations. I'd like to think that something is solid, and yet there are theories that say an item is made of atoms and other terms I can't recall lol And yet, I cannot clearly run through a brick wall. In the end, regardless of what kind of matter the thing is made of, I'm still solid, and it is also solid! 

Also, yesterday, I couldn't shake the feeling of awe when I think about life and living. There's something fascinating about it. A part of me likes to think I'm going through some sort of crisis lol But I think I simply love life, with regards to the ups and downs. 

I always find it so strange that so many factors had to have come into play in order for life as we know it to exist. Things fit so perfectly, so much in fact, that some might think that it should nearly be impossible. And it's with that, that I believe in a Source of all creation. I can't quite say what It is, but I think of a source of anything, I don't think it would have a gender of any sort...well not in the way we view it anyways. 

Someday, I hope we're able to progress in our ability to connect new ideas and create branches from those ideas. A teacher in college once taught me that everything started with a philosophical thought, a question, and that it then became know as it's own thing. 

It's also why I'm not against skepticism. If they question something, it's a great way to learn. However, I guess the same can be said for people who just blindly believe. If neither seek answers, what's the purpose of disbelieving or believing? 

Hm....I guess not everyone would feel compelled to follow a similar path lol It's also why I am very impressed with people who are religious, as they can put their faith into something so wholeheartedly. Me? I've been someone that questions things. Not to be obnoxious, but mostly to understand it from different angles. I'm a believer to an extent...I guess I'm a believer in the possibilities. I can never %100 go "that's not possible" because how the heck would I know? Well, I guess if someone were to tell me the sky was brown I could say it's not true, however, if I were blind and someone expressed the same thing, how can I say they're wrong? 

These are the kind of questions that keep me up at night haha Sometimes my mind will just go "Sleep? Who needs sleep, you chump! Wake up!!" 

Ok, so back to the point. 

In the reading about brain hacking (which is actually written by a neuroscientist), she's saying how it would be beneficial to find a balance between the prefrontal cortex and the amygdala. 

https://insighttimer.com/blog/how-to-hack-your-brain-for-full-potential-peak-performance/

Here's the link. 

Things like this really make me happy! I like that there are people out there who specialize in very particular things. If I'm being honest, I even found I had an appreciation for military weapons! lol I don't like guns or anything of the sort, but I have to admit that they're impressive. 

People can be quite impressive if you really sit down and think about it!

I'm not sure how we can be so concerned with nonsensical things, when there is such greatness about us as well. But, I guess as humans, it's common to focus on the negative. I can see why it's always said that we need more love in this world. Mostly, I think we need to continue to remind ourselves to love and to share that love. 

Whelps, it's late (going on 4 a.m.)!

Time for me to get some sleep. Perhaps someone will find the link interesting as well

Good night

Mon 

Don't be blown away

 I remember getting in to metaphysics years ago. It was a bit after I had that accident in middle school and a bunch of weird stuff started happening. I couldn't sleep well because I would constantly have sleep paralysis. I'm over that now, but boy was it a moment! haha 

I know understand that it was very much necessary. Even at the moment, I feel like a part of me KNEW that it was necessary because I didn't want to press any charges to the old lady involved. I just walked the entire thing off xD 

So during that time I spent a lot of time absorbing information about the universe, spirits and even some predictions. For me, I'd normally pay attention to information that seemed to repeat itself in different medias, or even common similarities from one culture to another. It's not about whether or not it's completely true, but whether or not there is SOME truth within it. 

One of the things that kept coming up was this shift that been happening for quite some time now. My mind goes back through the eras on history, and I'd think "well, it's not so far-fetched" because it's happened in the past. 

So with this shift, something I've read was that it will happen whether we want it to or not, and that people can ease themselves into it, or kick and scream...but still be brought into it anyways. That the ones kicking and screaming will have a tougher time. 

Apparently this shift is more on a spiritual level, and it's also why a lot of people may be acting out. It seems as if this shifting is bringing out a lot of things (possible mental or emotional responses that people aren't quite sure where they're coming from) that each individual soul is suppose to learn to deal with. 

Now I'm not 100% on whether or not this is entirely true, but it does seem to make a bit of sense considering what happened during the lockdown when covid started. A lot of people were forced to be alone and start looking within themselves. This "forced" isolation opened a lot of eyes. It seems forced due to the virus, but the virus was a thing to be used to cause a shift in how we view the world, just like my "accident" was a means for me to seek answers. 

A part of me still has a tough time accepting that there is "no such things as accidents" and that souls would purposely put themselves in traumatic situations, however, I also have to remember that freewill IS a very powerful thing and that a lot of people abuse this.

What helps me is to understand that I am a soul having a human experience, and not a human having a soul experience. The thing is that I can't speak for others, nor can I understand their intentions and why they have such intentions. It is sad that they're abusing the very powerful gift of freewill, but the idea karma, and receiving what you put out into the universe, I guess it's a good tool for learning. 

As I've stated before, I don't like seeing people go through painful experience, but it seems that pain is the best way humans learn. Shame. 

Yet, if I'm being honest, I doubt I have a squeaky clean resume as far as lives go lol perhaps it's one of those things where you live through pain and would like to lend advice/suggestions to others to help them possibly lessen the effects. 

All I know is that I'm sure I'm not the only one. It's being said by others in many different ways, some listen, others don't. 

What might seem, may not be what it appears to be. 

The best way I can describe this is being at the base of a tree, and being focused on only the tree and only seeing what's in front of you. But then when you climb this tree, or even step back, you see the bigger picture and it makes a bit more sense.

I think we aren't truly meant to SEE everything, possibly as a way to make sure we're really getting it. I'm always interested in hearing about past lives and what other people have gone through, but then I go "well, yeah, as much as the past is interesting, this life is important because it's now", and it helps me to understand that viewing the past is like having your own personal history book to look back on. 

Each of us, has a book about ourselves with a vast amount of knowledge and lessons we have learned over either a few or countless lives. I use the word "book" as a metaphor, I don't know if we actually use a book, but it's the best way I can help describe our lives. The next few chapters are as important as the parts that are written, and how we decide to write it is completely up to us. 

But I will saying, having a book exclusively made by you and you alone, doesn't it sound kind of cool? Looking at it this way, is similar to looking at your childhood in this life. That no matter what, how you view the past and all that has happened, can have an effect on your present moment, and that the way you view it determines the outcome of that present. 

I say this has my advice to the masses. I myself, have had some difficult moments in my childhood, and it took me some time to understand that there are people in  your lives also going through their own journey. They have things they are dealing with and they may take out their frustrations on you . For me, I had to go "well, it's not my fault" and take the blame from myself and properly see that the situation was theirs to deal with in a way that was not my fault. That THIS PERSON is not that, but that their lesson is very true and how they decided to act was not personally intended for me. 

These PEOPLE (or lives in this current time) are not permanent. But what we do as PEOPLE affect us. How we choose to live based on what happens to us in our lives can affect us on a personal level as well as on a collective level. On a deeper level, I'm sure deep down inside, I understand this, and it's why I choose not to participate in a lot of what we view as "normal" as far as choosing to be biased or generalizing goes (I've always had an issue with generalizations, even as a kid). 

It's also why I simply view each individual as an individual going along on their own journey and it helps me to connect with them on a different level then just the surface.

Sometimes I feel like I'm doing absolutely nothing in this life, but this is mostly by the standards of what's considering "living" by our society. But I'm an observer of life. When you observe, if I'm TOO active and participate, I can easily get caught up and miss some things. Then I wouldn't be me. THIS IS ME. 

So yes, I enjoy life and I enjoy the people on this planet. But it's always my wish that everyone would eventually get to a similar level, because trust me, if we were, the way we operate in our lives would be so much better lol We would stop viewing everyone as some sort of thing we need to compete against, and realize that we are all the same, but also are meant to experience things  in our on way. The judgements might no go away completely, but we would understand that what that person is doing is not meant to be our journey, but theirs. That it's not going to make sense to us because it's not meant to (at least on a human level anyways). 

With this information, or with these thoughts, some might wonder "why don't you go into teaching others?" and simply, this is my way of teaching. When I speak to people, I'm sharing. If they take what I say as some sort of advice, or just listen in general, it's up to them. I think giving me the title of "teacher" would also cause people to feel as if my words are absolutely key, and I don't want this to be the case. Mostly, I'd like to awaken them to their own inner knowledge, not to be wrapped up in mines. That what I know is just a stepping stone to help them come into themselves. 

Besides, I take such a responsibility very seriously lol In real life, I'm quite goofy and silly (sometimes even loud recently), but I'm a very serious person on the inside, very capable of deep and serious conversations. So I don't take responsibilities lightly, and because of this, I won't just accept taking something as serious as teaching others, lightly. This is why I'd do it for free, rather than have someone have to "pay a price" for it. Information/knowledge is priceless. 

I got the funny thought "well how do you expect to live as a human?" lol 

A personal tidbit about me, even when it came to my art (as bad as it was when I was a kid lol), I remember never wanting to charge anyone for me drawing them anything. It use to bother me that adults would say "don't draw things for people for free." 

I understand living, and needing money to survive in this life (because ya gotta eat right haha), but I don't want that to be the end goal only. Money is necessary, but it's not something I want my sole purpose to be on. I don't purposely want to seek money, but if I GAINED money or fortunes at the expense of what I have deep inside, I guess I'd  have to accept it haha 

A part of me, if I had to share it with you, is very much interested in the Rococo era (you know, the era where they wore those nice fluffy dresses), I feel like I was a part of that era, or at least that I had a life where I had money. So I'm not really interested in it. Maybe I came to understand that money isn't the only purpose of life. I'm not sure, but I've always been drawn to that era (I absolutely adore it!), and it's my assumption that I've just gone "well, been there, done that!" and my mind is just not there anymore. 

If someone has money, and love money, I'm at the point where I go "well, let's just hope they're learning other things as well" lol As long as they're not hurting anyone, I don't really care. 

I've also come to see, from an outside perspective (both of my sisters have said it), that I seem to not care for anything. This isn't true. I DO care, but I just won't actively participate in others lessons. Also, I do watch out for life patterns. So say someone is speaking to me, and they're telling me their life story, my mind will automatically start noticing patterns in their lives and I'll go "well, that seems like a thing they have to overcome", and honestly I don't have the answers as to how they should deal with it. I'll literally have no thoughts, just my ears and that alone.

In the past, my mind use to go to "well, I wouldn't do that!" and then I guess I've come to realize how biased saying something like that would sound. It's not MY life. So this "not caring" is not true, but if I'm viewing it from an outsiders perceptive, I guess how it could seem as so. Many people would like to hear your opinions, but opinions are changeable, and the last thing I'd like to do is dictate how someone should live their lives. But I have noticed some people will say "what should I do?" and I'll say "what do you THINK you should do?" and we'd talk it over.

Most people would like a roadmap or a GPS that will tell them how they should go about things (even I would like something like this), but I guess the best I'll say is this: That we do have particular stops in life (very particular points) that we must encounter, but how you decide to deal with them is similar to how you decide to drive on the road (if ya'll can't tell, I absolutely love analogies lol). 

I know it's not enough, because some people might go "but I have this friend, and we're not getting along, but I don't know how to approach the situation, or how to get him/her to understand the situation" and honestly, this to me is a bit surface level to be honest lol What is the deeper lesson between you and this friend, is something I can't answer. 

Also, I think a lot of the time we can't force external forces to work in our favor. Which is why I can't give a concrete answer on how to handle something. Say you try to make something work, but the other side doesn't want to work things out. Do you choose to actively try to make it work? Or do you accept that the situation has reached it's peek? This is the difference in one's level of  awareness of a situation I guess. I don't think it's wrong either way, but it's mostly based on how much "time" you're willing to put into that particular thing. 

But it's as my title goes, don't be blown away. It's easy to get caught up in one particular thing and completely miss another. I think the toughest part about living is being in this tiny area in life, and having this massive surrounding encompassing you, yet trying to understand it all while it's all happening simultaneously. It can be overwhelming. But I guess that's why grounding yourself often is necessary. 

I don't meditate (or ground myself), but I think me retreating to just reflect (and even typing this) is my form of grounding. Sometimes I'll just stand in one spot and stare off, or sit somewhere and stare off with no thoughts. So perhaps this is my way. Everyone may have their own unique way. You know, just stop sometimes, and let the thoughts just pass by and look at the way things are moving about. It might help. For me, all I see are other people going about their lives, and I realize  that they are very much like me. This is the connection that helps me. 

Well, these are my thoughts. They're long, but I hope they help. I can't quite say what this SHIFT will entail, but I would hope just understanding that how you choose to deal with it is up to you. This is the gist of this entire blog. 

With love and in light, I hope we all reach a point of acceptance and understanding. And if you're wondering, no I'm not religious lol but I very much respect religion. I am spiritual when I choose to be. And that is why I'm writing this. On the surface, I'm very much human, but don't get me started on the deeper stuff because I can go on for days haha 

So please try your best, believe in yourself, and if you feel like you've made a mistake, view it, and make a decision on how you would like to deal with a similar situation in the future. Then work to become that better version of yourself. :) 

I'll see you in the next one. 

Mon  

Past life blues

 So I found I have a difficult time watching stuff about past lives. I'm greatly interested in reading about it or watching documentaries about them, but when traumatic things happen in regards to those lives I really struggle! haha I feel and envision what some of these people have gone through and it hurts my heart. I think it's also why I can easily learn from other people. If someone were to share something about their lives, my heart gets super heavy.

Personally I don't mind hearing them, but I don't like the feeling. I guess the one benefit is that it wears off when I step away from it. But still really tough. 

If you're wondering what I'm talking about, it's about a t.v. series where parents talk about their children who speak of past lives early on in their lives. The one that touched my heart was about a young man named Jamey. He had a past life as (what he believes as well as his parents) a man named Thomas Anderson. As a child he has night terrors for two years where he had dreams he was dying. He had a fascination with the ship and drew a bunch of pictures of it. 

The part that made me sad was that he felt responsible for the people in the boiler room dying first. As a child, he said that they shouldn't have died at all and that the ship was poorly built. That the ship was constructed using iron rather than steel. And that the security measures are what sealed those poor souls in the boiler room. 

It was apparent that he had such strong feelings over the incident that it carried over into this life. It was just very saddening. 

I am glad that he's found a way to work over it though :) He's also working as a 3d modeler/animator! :D That makes me happy because so did I haha

Anyway, as intriguing as it is hearing these stories, it's the heart wrenching parts that really tug at my heartstrings. Sometimes I wish pain and sadness were things we just didn't have to experience, but I get why it exist. Saying that I wish sadness isn't a thing is like saying happiness doesn't exist. The polar opposite exist as a means to help us understand duality. You can't understand happiness without knowing pain. It's a feeling that doesn't have to be permanent depending on whether or not we continue to cling to it. 

But is it definitely saddening to see others experience it. It's just the urge to want to help, but knowing that with time that person will heal. It's all a part of their journey. 

I guess the best way to describe it is traveling on foot. Knowing that everyone is traveling, but each person experiences their travel in their own way. That everyone is given the same amount of resources, but that some will choose to either think they have access to none due to the limitations of their views, or take from someone else. These options are a thing due to freewill. If I were to step in, does it help the person see the resources provided around them? Chances are they would have to open their eyes to see.

Now, imagine that there are those who do see/can see, and they are preaching along the side of the road, telling the others that these resources exist. It's up to the bystanders who are traveling to heed the words and look for themselves. 

So in the travels people may get hurt as well. The other travelers can help or keep going while turning a blind eye.

This is as close to how I view the world as I can explain. I usually use the actors on stage analogy, but I think explaining it this way may give a better idea of what it's like to view painful situations. I don't like it. Yet they continue to happen. This is what bothers me the most. 

But I will say that I am seeing a shift. It's slow, but more people are opening up to a lot more of the progressive ideas such as reincarnation, meditation and the likes. Due to  this, it's like a ripple effect. If everyone focuses on wanting the same future, I think  it's possible.

The world is a strange place, simply because I feel like we bounce back in forth between polarities. Perhaps one day we can settle in one. Apparently there was a golden age in ancient Greece. I wouldn't be surprised if this is true as so many innovative things came from that period in time. So many great minds. I'm sure they had their problems, but as far as progressive things and innovative ideas, we are only progressing on a technological level.

Well, that's all for now. Just wanted to get these thoughts out. 

Mon

A dream about stones and floods

 Heyyy!

So I have been blogging here, I've just set them as a draft as they were much too long and mostly me getting my thoughts down. 

I have to say that the past two/three days have been a bit overwhelming. I couldn't even sleep the night prior due to having such a sad feeling for what happened in South Korea with the human crush. It's terribly saddening and all I could do was pray that the souls of those that had to go through such a scary thing, would be able to pass on peacefully. 

Then, a day later there was an incident where a bridge collapsed and 100+ people passed.

I started going over in my head the reasons why so many souls would need to return to the other side in such a huge sum, but I came up with nothing and could only assume that there's a reason. Recently I've noticed a surge in a large amount of souls returning to the other side. 

Suddenly, while I was lying in bed trying to fall asleep I started to think back to a dream I had about a week or so ago. I had two dreams in one night and I recall thinking that it was strange enough for me to write it down. The only issue was that I wanted to fall back to sleep and so I never  did write the date on it haha I did write a very very short description of what the overall dream was about.

The first was a "massive stone storm (landslide?)" is what I wrote, and the other I wrote "flooding of a building", but it was mostly a flood. 

I didn't think much of the dream until the following day that bridge collapsed over water and I thought back to the word "flood", or just water. The thing is that in my dream, I recall no one getting hurt. Yet, miraculously enough out of the 400 people near or on the bridge, only about 100 perished. 

Anyways, I did find it rather odd, mostly because I don't normally feel compelled to write down my dreams. Ever so often I'll do it, but sometimes I'm do groggy that I just don't want to. 

Well, even after the 9/11 and the tsunami in Japan in 2011, I'll spend some time thinking on those souls, acknowledging that they lived. That perhaps by doing so it pays homage to their existence. That despite the fact that we, the living, have no other choice but to continue moving forward in life, I feel that out of respect, it helps to acknowledge that there was an existence that once was, and will continue in my thoughts and heart.

I will never meet everyone in this world, but the feeling I have remains the same for everyone and it is that you are all special, and you all matter. It's my hope that everyone will eventually come to realize this, and that perhaps we will stop trying to compete with each other and proper live as one.

To any soul, and to the living, you will always have my shared sympathy. To this day, I always wonder what can I do to help, and someday, I hope it will be shown to me. Mostly it's my hope to help ease the burden a bit. But in the end, I'm only one person, so I guess this should be a shared opportunity for all of us to grow and love. Hopefully it comes to fruition someday. 

Please, rest in peace to any and all souls. And to the living, I pray that your heart be filled with light in order to help ease your sorrow or your grief. 

Mon

Try not to fight it

 The soul is an interesting thing!

Recently I've been away just being and doing what I feel like doing at the moment. I often wonder if it's enough (tbh I could be doing more in the arts lol but more on that later). But now I wonder, in regards to whom am I actually pondering about this? If I was to say I wasn't content and enjoying myself as I am now, I'd be lying. 

For example, on a whim I'll just randomly go for a walk outside and look take in the sights, with no other intention then this then I'll go "this is great!", because I'll feel a sense of excitement and joy in something so simple. 

In regards to my art, I'll doodle, but I've done nothing substantial. I've been doing a lot (and I mean A LOT) of reading on various topics. Recently I've been reading about game design and programming. I'm currently reading about chakras, Nostradamus (again lol), astrology and learning to draw in perspective. So when I have a bunch of topics I'm covering I try not to overwhelm myself by thinking I need to DO so much! Mostly I'll just burn myself out. 

When it comes to my ideas I simply jolt them down, that way I'll be able to come back to them later. This work for me! It's something I've also been doing before bed, if I have a bunch of ideas starting to pour in while I'm trying to sleep. 

I found that when I try to control this flow I actually interrupt it. When I was in school I actually said how I actually felt like the school was leeching me of my creativity energy. Prior to attending I would draw so much and fill so many sketch books with drawings. But once I attended my first year I felt so drain and felt like I couldn't produce anything proper. I also wasn't drawing as much as I felt like it wasn't as enjoyable. 

This is what has halted me from wanting to work for a company as I question if I'll be truly happy with creating art for other people. I truly enjoy my freedom. That's not to say I wouldn't ever want to help someone bring about an intangible idea, quite the opposite, I would like this very much. However, it would be of my own choosing and not in a way that is draining of me. 

I've come to truly understand that how I feel truly does effect my work haha I don't like it, but I can't turn it off. I can adjust, but going to college and experiencing it first hand as taught me that it will still happen even if I try my best to adjust. So I just accept it and move along freely. 

And with this I've come to understand that soul and the way it likes to live is completely different from how humans may think we should. I'm not basing this only from this one experience but from other things I've noticed from other people as well.

It's the thing that keeps us up at night. Our human brain understand very well that going to work and making money is very important, but the spirit realm doesn't have this concept of time and so the energy may disrupt us. 

This is my theory anyways lol I could very well be wrong, but I would like to think this is the reason for our instabilities. 

I personally feeling wide awake at 2 or 3 in the morning, but I found that I can work more efficiently.  I guess because it's quieter during the night than during the day. And because of this I've been considering more and more to try my hand at working from home. At least for now anyways. I'll start working on my webcomic again, but mostly I'd like to share stories that come to mind. If they help move people in some way, then I'd be happy. :) Somehow, I'd just like my work and my life to be in-sync with one another so I can feel at peace and feel that everything is harmonious. 

Have you also been feeling that the world and the people have been quite strange? I think something is happening and it may be affecting everyone. Could just be me though, but I feel like people are changing in some way. I'm just hoping it will be for the best of the world, for themselves and everyone around them. 

Mon

Today's events 9/18/21

 Hey! How are you doing today? I hope all is well and if not, I hope things will get better.

So I want to quickly type out my thoughts and events that occurred today. Today I've been watching quite a bit of content centering around the afterlife and past life regression, so it's been a bit of a rollercoaster of sadness to happiness for me lol 

Now I'm watching a woman talk about a conversation she had with God and immediately when she spoke about God feeling sad for humankind I immediately became very sad and wanted to cry. It made me think back to a time when I was in college, sitting at a window and just gazing down at the students and I just felt very sad. I apologized to mankind. 

It's a similar feeling I got while attempting to read the bible. It's not that I'm not excited about the lessons contained in it, I just can't do it. When I think about Jesus, or any other significant figure who contributed so much time and effort to humankind, only to feel as if it only left a dent, it makes me feel sad. Yet, I think the sadness goes beyond this. 

So that's one thing. The other was a name that popped into my head. It started with an A and I didn't even attempt to write it down lol My first thought was "I can barely read the names in Greek mythology, let alone whatever that name was." So now it's slipped my mind and I don't even recall what it was. 

But after a shower and just thinking random thoughts in regards to everything, the name Prometheus came to mind. I was surprisingly able to spell this name. I know I've heard of the name before, but I don't recall who this is. Turns out it's a God from the Greek religion.

So I'm currently reading the first article that stuck out to me when I looked up the name, and a very interesting phrase immediately stood out to me: 

". As the price of fire, and as punishment for humankind in general, Zeus created the woman Pandora and sent her down to Epimetheus (Hindsight), who, though warned by Prometheus, married her. Pandora took the great lid off the jar she carried, and evils, hard work, and disease flew out to plague humanity. Hope alone remained within." 

This is interesting. Here is the link: 

https://www.britannica.com/topic/Prometheus-Greek-god

In regards to humans and life in general, I do feel a happiness and a hopefulness, yet I also feel a bit of sadness and sometimes frustration and despair. A part of me understands a lot of what happens here is due to our own doings, that things don't just appear from nowhere. They start from somewhere and ripple out into the world and this ripple can affect other people. That is the part that saddens me the most.

Oh! Before I go on, the woman who received lessons from God said something that stood out to me and I thought I should share it, as I've felt that sharing any of my thoughts or feelings with some people can seem futile. She said he told her that every individual (every living soul at this current moment) is given a special gift by him, and it's up to them to receive that gift from him. 

I started to think that it's an interesting thing to hear, mostly because in the past I have heard people say that felt like they had no talent or anything to offer. Yet, I would always respond "I'm sure you do!" but I don't know what their talents or gifts are. It's always my assumption that each and every person on this earth as a purpose but that the problem is we perceive that our purpose must come from our society and others. 

I believe mines is my speaking. I speak very strongly, but I also feel just as strong. I remember being young and feeling frustrated that I was a child and couldn't wait to get older simply so people would actually listen to me! haha This was literally my thoughts. The issue with me is sharing this information, I don't feel it's ever anything I should be making money from. I also feel the same about my art. My thought is this, that my ideas and my images will always be unique and special from me, something that no one else can recreate, because no one else in in my head but me. 

So I guess art and speaking are my strong suits. 

Another interesting thing she was shown was her life review (please look this up if you're interested, life review metaphysics). The first review he showed her were all the important things from her life, getting married, having kids, etc. Then he showed her a second life review, the things he thought were important in her life, and in it she saw her doing things for others, caring for abandoned animals, showing compassion and love. 

This struck me, and it seemed to have impacted her as well, because she stated that the first life review was based on what society deemed to be important!

She then stated that he told her that the most important thing in life is love. LOVE. 

I don't think we need to be constantly reminded of this, but we have had so many figures in life fight for injustice and preach love and togetherness! And this is where my issue lies (it's also something I've been sharing with a dear friend of mines). In regards to the thousands and thousands of years we have been on this earth,  I do feel like we're finally getting it, but it's a slow SLOW process. 

If we take away time, and evaluate things without it being a factor, I would see it as a room constantly being filled with a mess of things simply floating around haha And ever so often you'll have a considerate, passionate soul step in to start doing the cleaning, only to leave and have the room be filled with more of a mess on top of the small amount of mess left behind. 

Well I'm sure you can imagine that if we remove time from the equation, the room will fill with or without time. The issue is of doing something to fix the mess and keeping it clean. Knowing where such-and-such item belongs and keeping it there. So hate, is it necessary for us? No. It CAN exist, but it's how we choose to deal with it and how we choose to express it (healthy or unhealthy...think Ying and Yang). So hate, it goes on a bookshelf. A book that we know is there, but that we don't need to pick up unless we simply want to examine it. 

Another issue I have is how all of this chaos effects the planet. I love Earth! It's such a beautiful planet. I may not be an activist fighting to preserve this planet, but I can understand why some people choose to fight for it. Anyway, this chaos can cause this planet pain as well. To even look at Earth as if it is not living would be a foolish thing to do. Simply look at the things growing from it, and it's very much alive, so this planet is very much alive. To abuse it would be similar to abusing one's home...or each other...Hm...I guess I'm seeing a pattern haha I'm being sarcastic btw

I think, if there is anything I share today that I wish people would take with them, is throughout the day, remember that you can make a difference through your gestures of love and compassion. If everyone on Earth simply came to this exact same thought, everything would simply stop. If everyone decided I will love and show compassion for the person standing next to me, regardless of their beliefs or what they look like, everything would simply stop. 

As far as our economy and the way things are structured, this would need to be adjusted. I don't think scarping everything upfront would help, things would blow up. No, I think it should be similar to something I once read (I think the book was called A conversation with God...the title just came to mind. The book is simply white and very basic), it said something like work from the foundation up. Pretty much it was stating that we would have to readjust. But you have to understand, this is years and years of thinking a certain way (humans I mean), years and years of believing a certain way of living in necessary. 

But I will take something that is simple and share it. Take currency. Once it was common to trade animals for goods, right? Then it became labor for goods. Now it's still labor for goods lol And this has been happening even since Ancient Egypt. I'm guessing this is why we're having people come into life trying to push the idea of robots. Yet, even with this it truly matters the purpose of these robots. How ill humans use them and will they abuse them? Are we using them for the right reason or are we using them to make people lazy and ineffective? Intent is important....this is freewill. One of life's greatest gifts, yet also something of great responsibility that some fail to truly understand. 

Mon

Dream

 So I had another weird dream. 

I couldn't remember it earlier, but after seeing an article about flooding in New York I remembered what it was. I had a dream that New York flooded in a similar way to that of New Orleans after Hurricane Katrina. I remember thinking about how there is the belief that a lot of city along the coastline will eventually become flooded due to the rising sea levels. 

Of course now I find this dream even more strange considering the fact that I just now saw an article about flooding in New York. I'm sure it's not as bad as I dreamt it would be and from what I read it will takes many years for coastal areas to become completely submerged. 

This whole thing just reminds me of the city of Atlantis as well as that island that emerged from the ocean a few years ago. It's also interesting to note that after the devastating Earthquake in Japan in 2011 the island shifted by a few cm. 

I don't think the beliefs of coastline cities becoming submerged is far-fetched. Mostly because it's happened in the past. Long ago, before we even had all of these different countries, everything was mostly one huge landmass as well. It would be interesting to know what this planet will look like in the next million years (if it reaches that point). Perhaps in another life I'll be given the opportunity! 

Well, that's all for now. Oh! By the way I'm attempting to make donuts again! They turned out okay the first time, but I didn't realize I should have been a bit more careful when transferring them to the oil (I basically pressed down on them because I placed them too close to one another on the plate when I let them rise again). This time around I purchased some handy tools. I not have a donut cutter! The last time I used two glasses lol Some of the donuts came out lopsided, so I invested in a donut cutter.

After I found out I have a dairy allergy I haven't had donuts. It's been years! So I suddenly had the idea to just make my own :) So even if they came out not so good, I'd still eat them anyways lol 

And with that, I'll a great day~~

Mon